Tuesday, May 27, 2014
Hereís how you can tell if I am derailed from my healthy living habits Ö.. you donít see or hear from me much. I fade away into the woodwork, I donít have much to say, I contribute just the minimum to my sparkteams, I withdraw from active Spark life.
Good example, no blog here in 6 weeks, none, not a word, nada. Also my food tracker goes unused and itís got more than a few blank days in the past 6 weeks. I would guess that I am not alone in the disappearing act or the blank tracker days when I am acting out with my food plan. Can anyone else relate?
Fortunately, I had the ďcome to JesusĒ talk with myself and I got Sparking serious again a week or so ago so I am currently moving in the right direction. I just wish that I hadn't undone all of the hard work that I did in the past months with those last few weeks of bingeing and Mayhem in May.
Itís amazing how quickly the pounds pile back on and how slowly they come back off! Can you say ďtight pantsĒ and ďmuffin topĒ?
Actually, now that I think of it and being perfectly honest (which is really my only way out of this mess) itís more than just May Mayhem that has contributed to the piling on of those pounds. There were also those first couple of weeks in October when I first stepped away from what had been working for me for 7 months, followed by a huge relapse for 10 days or so during the Christmas and New Years holidays and then there was that two week March Madness foray and now the Mayhem in May! Itís a wonder Iím not in worse shape than I am!! I really should be grateful that I did not put on all of the 25 pounds that I lost those first seven months on this site!
One of the contributing factors to my still being here and probably for not gaining all of the lost weight back is that in the 416 days that I have been on SP I have worked out every single day and now consider myself a year round exerciser. Before I joined SP in March of last year, I rarely ever worked out from November Ė May. This year I was out walking in even the bitterest cold Michigan weather.
Also, I have friends here at Spark People whom I cherish and who I know want me to be successful. I think part of my shutting down when I am derailed is the fact that I donít want to disappoint them. But really I am only as sick as my secrets and you all canít help me if you donít know that I am suffering.
Following the lead of one of my favorite Spark friends, STEPH-KNEE, I have decided not to reset my tracker, start a new Spark account or ask for a do over, instead I am facing the music, putting one foot in front of the other and humbly asking for support from my spark community. I KNOW that I canít do this alone.
Can I ask a favor? If you donít see me around, please come looking for me, I probably need your help or a kick in the pants, or both!