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Derailed? How can you tell?

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Here’s how you can tell if I am derailed from my healthy living habits ….. you don’t see or hear from me much. I fade away into the woodwork, I don’t have much to say, I contribute just the minimum to my sparkteams, I withdraw from active Spark life.

Good example, no blog here in 6 weeks, none, not a word, nada. Also my food tracker goes unused and it’s got more than a few blank days in the past 6 weeks. I would guess that I am not alone in the disappearing act or the blank tracker days when I am acting out with my food plan. Can anyone else relate?

Fortunately, I had the “come to Jesus” talk with myself and I got Sparking serious again a week or so ago so I am currently moving in the right direction. I just wish that I hadn't undone all of the hard work that I did in the past months with those last few weeks of bingeing and Mayhem in May.

It’s amazing how quickly the pounds pile back on and how slowly they come back off! Can you say “tight pants” and “muffin top”?

Actually, now that I think of it and being perfectly honest (which is really my only way out of this mess) it’s more than just May Mayhem that has contributed to the piling on of those pounds. There were also those first couple of weeks in October when I first stepped away from what had been working for me for 7 months, followed by a huge relapse for 10 days or so during the Christmas and New Years holidays and then there was that two week March Madness foray and now the Mayhem in May! It’s a wonder I’m not in worse shape than I am!! I really should be grateful that I did not put on all of the 25 pounds that I lost those first seven months on this site!

One of the contributing factors to my still being here and probably for not gaining all of the lost weight back is that in the 416 days that I have been on SP I have worked out every single day and now consider myself a year round exerciser. Before I joined SP in March of last year, I rarely ever worked out from November – May. This year I was out walking in even the bitterest cold Michigan weather.

Also, I have friends here at Spark People whom I cherish and who I know want me to be successful. I think part of my shutting down when I am derailed is the fact that I don’t want to disappoint them. But really I am only as sick as my secrets and you all can’t help me if you don’t know that I am suffering.

Following the lead of one of my favorite Spark friends, STEPH-KNEE, I have decided not to reset my tracker, start a new Spark account or ask for a do over, instead I am facing the music, putting one foot in front of the other and humbly asking for support from my spark community. I KNOW that I can’t do this alone.

Can I ask a favor? If you don’t see me around, please come looking for me, I probably need your help or a kick in the pants, or both!
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    You have put yourself out there for all of your friends to see and we are here with open arms to support you and help you in any way we can. I see/hear MANY of us that are in the same boat. Love all of your alliterations. emoticon You CAN and you WILL make this happen! emoticon emoticon emoticon Together we CAN!
    1154 days ago
    To slip up from time to time is normal. If I'm typical, that muffin top will come and go many times. LOL It's knowing you have to get back to work and then getting it done that keeps things us healthy and happy.
    1154 days ago
    First of all, I think you are absolutely fabulous!! And I thought that long before I got to the part where you were sweet enough to mention me. ;) I am so sorry you have had a rough time, we all go through that for sure. I think it is great that you were able to lay out the changes that you need to get back to business. But I also think it's extremely important to give yourself credit where it's due. All that exercise and being so consistent with it is truly inspiring and quite an accomplishment! :) I have a hard time remembering which spark friends don't really like to blog and who might be quiet for other reasons, but now I know and will put u on my radar. ;) I care about u and want u to reach your goals. You can always spark mail me if u need any added support. :) p.s. There would be tons of emoticons but I'm on my iPod and it won't let me. ;)
    1154 days ago

    Comment edited on: 5/27/2014 7:30:37 PM
  • FITAT50
    I can so relate to a relapse :-( You've asked for accountability, you've got it! I won't to see daily, quality posts on how you're doing each day, the good, the bad and the ugly. I believe we're really close in steps and will gladly challenge you. Robin and I are in a daily challenge and it sure makes me walk more!
    1154 days ago
  • LUCYLU22
    I LOVE the point you made about shutting down when you're derailed because I think SO many of us do that when we FALL short. We ALL need to realize that each of us have been there at one time or another, and that is the BEST time to get the support we need to move forward instead of staying in a stagnate situation. I will definitely make it a point to check in with YOU!

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    1154 days ago
    You sound like you can make the commitment now! Good going,
    1154 days ago
  • MJRVIC2000
    Remember that there is BIG difference between making a DECISION and making a COMMITMENT! God Bless YOU! Vic.
    1154 days ago
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