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My Second Monday Weigh In

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Monday, May 26, 2014

Well, today was my 2nd regular Monday weigh in...and I'm not thrilled with the results.

Last week started out GREAT. I got my first weigh in and then I was off and running. I was tracking my food, pushing myself during my workouts, drinking my water, and just generally doing my best to make each day as healthy as possible. I was being my own hero, one choice at a time.

And I could tell that I was making progress. I felt better, and was performing better at my workouts. It was great to be on track again.

Then on Saturday morning, depression came along. My friend Dot called to tell me that her home had sold, and she will be moving to California in less than 10 days.

I've known Dot for 20 years now, and although we are not really close friends, she is still a friend. And when I told hubby that she was moving, he said "Wow, all of your friends have moved away." Of course, I already KNEW that my friends were all gone, but until he actually put it into words, I hadn't really FELT it.

Twenty years ago when I first met Dot, I had a whole lot of friends. It seemed like there was always someone hanging out at my house, or going shopping with me, calling me on the phone, etc. But over the years, those friends have moved away and we lost touch. And as for the new people that moved in....well, none of them have really clicked with me for one reason or another.

So that just left me with one friend, Dot. We didn't hang out a lot, but once a month or so we'd go to lunch together, and we would borrow books from each other. And now, in less than 10 days, she's going to be gone. It really depressed me when I thought about it. And for me, when I'm depressed, I eat. So I binged. I'm so upset with myself for that. I successfully avoided a binge on Thursday night. But I didn't even try to avoid the binge this time. I was depressed and feeling sorry for myself, so I turned to food.

I'm back on track now, though. And I'm not depressed. Yes, I'm sad that Dot is moving away and I am losing the last of my friends. But really, I haven't lost all my friends. I know that I am blessed with the BEST friends of all...my Spark friends!

So after my weekend binge, I had to weigh myself today. I thought I'd be up about a pound, but I'm not. I'm actually DOWN .6 of a pound. I know I could have done better, but I'm not going to beat myself up about it. I'm just going to get back on track right now. Next weeks weigh in is going to be a lot better!



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SUPERDAD55 6/16/2014 10:43PM

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CHANGING-TURTLE 6/3/2014 10:14AM

    emoticon on the weight loss every little bit helps. I got mad at my hubby last night and had a binge, now have to get back on track emoticon emoticon

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CCBULLDOG 6/2/2014 8:13PM

    It's funny how a different times in your life, friends click better with you than others...I'm sure you will miss Dot....but your spark journey might bring you a new friend to meet your weight loss goals. Good luck!

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PATTIE441 6/2/2014 4:06PM

    Sorry about your friend Pixie. We are here for you girl. I may not be on here like I used to be, but I am always here for you girl. Just call my name, and I'll be there! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon And you ARE doing it!! We CAN and ARE doing it!! emoticon

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SHARSUE 6/2/2014 10:23AM

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I can completely relate! And of course you have every reason to be sad about Dot moving away.
The important thing is, you recognized your binge for what it was--a reaction to the feelings you were experiencing. And instead of trying to ignore it (which probably would have backfired in a BIG way), you acknowledged it, took ownership of it, and MOVED FORWARD. That is no small accomplishment!
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ANNASGOALS 6/2/2014 9:40AM

    Pixie you did lose .6 that is nothing to discount!!

I understand how loosing friends can be sad but I know new people will come into your life ~ hang in there my friend!

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MRSRIGS1 6/1/2014 3:47PM

    I'm so sorry your friend is moving. The same happens to me. I am the type of person that has many acquaintances but very few friends. When I find someone that totally clicks with me, she ends up moving at some point in my life. On the bright side, although you may not see her in person you'll always have email, phone or snail mail. emoticon

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JOE_ANNE2 6/1/2014 8:52AM

    You are emoticon Pix

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SAPHRAEL 6/1/2014 12:30AM

    emoticon to hear about Dot moving away. It's funny how we can lose touch with people even though we have access to them at our finger tips. There's no substitute for face to face relationships. It is tough finding new friends, tougher the older we get, it seems. But I like the earlier suggestion to check out meetup.com. I may do that again myself to find some local walking buddies.

Keep going! You have a whole Sparkworld in your corner!
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DEEDAYE 5/31/2014 8:23AM

    I always identify with your blogs! emoticon

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PCASEY7 5/30/2014 8:49PM

    Way to refocus Trixie!

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CAROL_31649731 5/30/2014 12:37PM

    emoticon Hugs to you, Pixie. Nice blog . . . thanks for sharing that with us, your sparkfriends. You will keep in touch with Dot, I'm sure. You will get that scale moving more, don't worry. I finally blogged about my relationship with it (you'll get there, too--I know you will!)
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FALLNTENN 5/29/2014 8:00PM

    emoticon I'm sorry about your friend moving.

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MAYBER 5/29/2014 3:32PM

    Enjoy reading your blogs continue to take one day at a time
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DS9KIE 5/29/2014 8:10AM

    I still think your doing emoticon

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COASTAL6 5/29/2014 4:54AM

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SNOWYOGA 5/29/2014 12:59AM

    good blog emoticon

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RENATA144 5/28/2014 11:29PM

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HEALTHYLU1 5/28/2014 10:22PM

    .6 of a pound a week over a year is over emoticon 31 pounds!

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WALNUTT1961 5/28/2014 4:19PM

    Sorry about your friend moving away. I have turned to food for a lot less! You still did well! The scale went the right way emoticon

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PACKERMANN 5/28/2014 12:26PM

    thank you for your honesty (as usual). :)

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ROXYCARIN 5/28/2014 7:33AM

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PJB145 5/28/2014 1:20AM

    Any weigh in with a loss is a good weigh in. Congrats on losing this week. It was okay to grieve but like you said, you are back on track and ready to tackle this week.

Good luck. I am rooting for you. emoticon

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LIVELYGIRL2 5/28/2014 12:21AM

  Well, why don't you challenge yourself to try and talk to new people. I know my last close friend from church left.

Maybe you could correspond with some year or e-mail. I know we also need friends we can see and talk to.

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BOPPY_ 5/28/2014 12:09AM

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CICELY360 5/28/2014 12:06AM

  good blog

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IRISHGAL46 5/27/2014 10:29PM

    emoticon I'm sorry about your friend moving but I am so proud of you. We can do this!

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ROCKYCPA 5/27/2014 10:22PM

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GENRE009 5/27/2014 9:38PM

    It's very sad to lose friends. Who knows maybe you'll visit her.
I'm glas you stayed on track to lose weight still. eva.

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LISAN0415 5/27/2014 9:32PM

    wow, thats awesome that you are still down .6 lbs! Maybe your metabolism needed a higher calorie "reset" day.

I have my first weigh in since re-starting this journey on Thursday. I restarted officially last Thursday, tracking food and getting more activity. I am glad to be back on the journey.

I am happy to see that you are still consistently staying on the journey, and when you feel you fall from your goals, you hold yourself accountable. I need to do that also.

Keep in touch! Keep sparking!
Lisa

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CORNERKICK 5/27/2014 8:07PM

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BLPRETTYGIRL1 5/27/2014 6:16PM

    emoticon one step at a time.

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NEWTINK 5/27/2014 5:52PM

    a loss is a loss ... you have done great this week emoticon

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GABY1948 5/27/2014 5:03PM

    I'm glad you are back on track! That truly is how life goes, in and out, up and down. You are doing emoticon at not letting it blow your whole program!

Have a truly blessed week! And I love the new background on your page! SO TRUE!

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PATRICIAANN46 5/27/2014 4:38PM

  You got back on track and that's the main thing. emoticon

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WATERDIAMONDS 5/27/2014 3:47PM

    You've dealt with it and moved on. That's the only way to go--forward!

Best of success this week.

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JERICHO1991 5/27/2014 2:34PM

    Great job dealing with/processing your emotions, and getting back on track.

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JSEATTLE 5/27/2014 1:30PM

  Great Job on .6 down!! You had some hard news to bear and surely this week will be better both mentally and physically. So hard to lose a friend but these days the distances don't have to be so great with our use of technology. I'm always ready to make a new friend!

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MICKEYH 5/27/2014 1:30PM

    Thank you for sharing. We can do this. emoticon

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WINDSWEPTACRES 5/27/2014 1:18PM

    Congratulations on catching yourself before a one-day slip became a week of binging. I know how hard it can be to make friends -- real friends -- and not just co-worker/acquaintances, as we get older. I mean the kind of friendship where you can show up at somebody's front door at any hour and be welcome without question.

I know comfort eating is your go-to stress response; what else gives you that feeling of taking care of yourself, nurturing your soul? How can you fill your eyes, ears and heart with beauty? Aromatherapy oils can be soothing or uplifting. I like the joyful feeling of jasmine when I'm starting to slip into depression, or myrrh for centering myself, but even cutting into a fresh lime can give me a momentary boost. See if any of them work for you.

I've also used Bach's Rescue Remedy to get me through bad times. It was pretty much my constant companion for months after my husband died, when if seemed that nothing was worth going on for, except that I had no choice.

Sometimes even finishing up a project that's been at loose ends for months can help me feel like there's some progress going on in my life.

We've all been through tough times, and we've all gotten though them somehow. I'd bet you've got more coping skills in your bag of tricks than you know.

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NHES220 5/27/2014 11:15AM

    I'm glad the scale is down and I know you are disappointed it is not down more. It is tough when your hang out people leave. We have neighbors that we hang out with, not necessarily close friends, but people to do stuff with. One moved, one we don't see as much. Hang in there!

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RUNGIRL1973 5/27/2014 11:12AM

    It seems like the older I get, the more difficult it is to make new friends.

My husband and I are trying, and have started building a friendship with a couple from our church, but I really have a hard time being outgoing with new people.

As for me, I moved away from all of my friends, so I have to start from scratch.

Binges happen, we just have to move on and put it behind us. I was doing really well last week, too. Then, the long weekend happened. My WI wasn't great, but I know what I did wrong, and I CAN do better this week.

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DEEKELLYE 5/27/2014 10:53AM

    I love my friends here on Spark People. I have lost a few friends when I moved from one state to another but I still keep in contact with a few people via phone calls and text messages. It's always hard when we lose friends. Chin up buttercup.

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LCRUMLEY81 5/27/2014 10:19AM

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BOHEMIANCAT 5/27/2014 10:14AM

    That is hard, I can relate. When I first moved here all the friends I had made moved away. I made new friends, but could use more!
You are doing great, .6 pound is good! Think of things you can do to make new friends... it is not easy but can be done.

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REDSPIRALWOMAN 5/27/2014 10:04AM

    Oh those ups and downs of life. But here you are, once again, writing, sharing, examining. You are always a winner. emoticon

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