Monday, May 26, 2014
I have lost 100 pounds so far now, and I'm at a healthy weight, with a body fat percentage that's on the high end of the "athletic" category... but my belly still looks atrocious to me; there are a few inches of fat still left to lose there. I have about 30 pounds to the goal weight that I set for myself, and I feel those 30 pounds are all right there in my belly. I cannot live like this anymore.
Last night I passed out. It may have been in part caused by the allergy medication I had taken, but I think the main culprit was my blood sugar--it has been incredibly low lately. The issue is that, in order to maintain a caloric deficit, I can't really do much to bring my glucose levels up (this includes the subtractions for exercise, since exercise also drops blood sugar levels). So insulin shock has become a regular thing for me over the past month or so. This is not okay for me. I cannot live like this anymore.
I want to lose those last 30 pounds or so ever so badly that I would sacrifice just about anything to get there...
And apparently, "just about anything" includes my health.
After discussing the matter with concerned family members, I decided to set my calorie goal at maintenance calories for the time being, so that I won't feel like I might keel over and drop into a coma at any moment. I hope I made the right call, but part of me is feeling like crap for not being able to continue with the calorie deficit.