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No Nekkin'!

Sunday, May 25, 2014

I'm sure everyone has that person in their life that their words of critism crippled their ego.
I've been insecure about my legs since 17.
Puberty hit and I got curves.
I went from thin to this random mass of odd lumps and bumps.
I felt gross and ashamed when my body morphed from girl to woman. It was validated by an ex's comment when I first sat in his passenger seat and the disgust in his voice when he exlaimed, "Good God your thighs are fat!"

I lived in a home full of girls with a step-dad that never spoke unless it was important. I didn't know there were ignorant males. I innocently took this boy's comment as gospel.

I was a freak.

I met SNOWANGELSPOCK within the year and he worshipped my curves. By this time my self-image had been damaged and even though he said he thought I was attractive and he wasn't a guy to pamper egos, I didn't trust him. I thought he was hiding his repulsion to protect me.

A couple of babies later, I had a generational photo done ith my daughter, mother and maternal grandmother. Upon receiving a copy of the photo my grandmother said in reference to me, "Having children is no excuse to let yourself go. Her knees are huge!"
She had 9 kids. I waived her total disregard for my feelings and that her pregnancies were healthy and her postpartum diet wine and accepted her words as gospel.

It has taken me 21 years and I feel I am beautifully and wonderfully made.
For 38, and five kids later, I did not expect to feel comfortable in my skin. In 2010 I just hoped to feel less miserable and not wear the thigh area on my pants to dust from friction.

I know they're lookin' good at the top of my b.m.i. I thought that little gap between my thighs and knees was a deformity or sign of anorexia in my teens. I am 157 and 5'9". I'm comfortable in my skin. I thought it was because appearance compared to my obese form. My legs are how I remember them from before I battled obesity.
They're older and have more mileage; yet, I have pride and thankfulness. It's not the shallow feeling I expected when a certain vanity was achieved.

I was thankful for what God gave me. I have pride that I'm taking care of th egift of healthy, and strong legs. I can take care of my family because of them.

I am sorry for the poorly written blog. I'm having trouble typing on my teeny phone. Although the Good Lord is allowing me to enjoy healthy legs I have yet to figure out why I got Shrek sized fingers... ;)

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
SHASSYSUE2 7/12/2014 3:28AM

    Oh how I have missed your blogs!!!! I am going back and read everyone one of them, I have missed you!!! HUGS! Shannon

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KAREN-IS-HERE 6/12/2014 10:39AM

    ....great legs! emoticon

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PEWTERBUNNY 6/9/2014 1:36PM

    Congrats on your success and the continuing successes! I love your hula hoop! Great job!

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    I've had similar feelings about my legs ever since I got stretch marks from GROWING TALLER in high school. They're nothing compared to what I have now, but I'm slowly learning to accept myself & appreciate what my body is capable of!

Thank you for the great & encouraging post! Congrats on finally feeling comfortable in your own beautiful God-given skin! You deserve it!


PS. Loved your Boots are made for a walking comment too!

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Comment edited on: 6/6/2014 2:24:24 AM

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MIBELLALUNA 6/4/2014 10:26AM

    Awesome !! I am looking for inspiration to get off my butt and start working out again and you have just given it to me! :)) Looking GRRRREAT!!!

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TEXASFILLY 5/31/2014 1:03PM

    OMG! At 5'9" with legs like yours is my dream~ maybe in the next life the good Lord will have my spiritual bod with gorgeous gams up to me neck! *LOL*

I think you are beautiful inside and out~ 'n I agree with an earlier Sparker, don't let others define you. God wanted someone just like YOU, Lizzie~ and He sure did a mighty fine job. Love you, gal~ *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ASRMOM 5/30/2014 11:43PM

    I love this blog! I long for the day where I can take my body for how it is and be proud of it. I'm so proud of you for reaching this point in your life--many women never see it.
You have great legs! Of course, even they are darker than mine--and you are even farther north. *sigh*.
Very excited about the acceptance, and positive attitude in this blog.

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LIVINHEALTHY9 5/26/2014 8:08PM

    Don't let others define you.

Your legs look great and so do you!

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I*AM*BLESSED 5/26/2014 8:23AM

    Proud of you, Girlfriend! More proud that you have kept the weight off. It takes a lot of self-respect to accomplish that...obviously, you are a stronger woman than you give yourself credit for.
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SNOWANGELDIVA 5/26/2014 12:57AM

    Shel~ Read your comment and the first thing I thought was singing (to the tune of: These Boots Are Made For Walkin'), "These legs are made for:
hooping, cartwheeling, skipping, fake karate
and that's just what they'll do. One of these days these legs are gonna learn to surfboard too!"

Lori~ AMEN! emoticon

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MISSLORI5 5/26/2014 12:22AM

    You are beautiful!! NEVER quit thinking like you do now!!! I know the power of words, the lasting damage of looks, and the lasting effect of tones very well, but I also know the power of God's word, and His is above anything man can do!! He says you are fearfully and wonderfully made, believe it to the very depth of your soul!!! P.S. God knew when He created you what those legs were going to be needed for, and you needed strong ones with 5 kids!!! You go, girl!!! emoticon

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MOSTMOM1 5/25/2014 10:42PM

    You look mahvelous. Just think of all the places those beautiful legs have taken you!

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