Sunday, May 25, 2014
Woke up early (for me) again at 5:30am, went back to sleep, thought it would be like 9am...it was 6am haha.
Went out for a 20mins walk, was beautiful. Ate not well but not a lot calorie wise for breakfast so ...you know still felt guilty, but not super guilty.
Going to church today for the first time since I was a teenager (gonna walk there too, should take only about 20mins there...and then 20mins back so I guess I'll get some walking in today!)... a United church because they best line up with my own beliefs. I went to a catholic school but became very disillusioned with I guess Roman Catholicism.
I'm also going to visit my friend who is in an eating disorders program for anorexia and bulimia. I'm excited to see her, but I also know it will be very very triggering so I'm kinda scared. Will take a lot of strength.
My gut has been so awful lately. I was wondering why because it has been a long time (I basically feel like I'm gonna poo my pants ALL the time, like I've taken laxatives lol, tmi)...well I found out it is from Seroquel withdraw, I've got some other ones too but that is the most annoying.
But overall I'm feeling pretty good today, I think.