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Aiming for Perfection, but Missing the Mark?

Saturday, May 24, 2014

Okay, so I admit that I am somewhat of a perfectionist - a perfectionist, that is, with almost anything I do EXCEPT what I do for me. Sigh. What is up with this I wonder? I am not entirely happy with the current shape I am in, BUT on the other hand, I am in much better shape than I was in 5 years ago. Truth is, I am holding fairly steady according to the scale (up a few, down a few, up a few - you get the idea...). I have more energy. Although not quite the way I want to look, I look okay for a "grandmotherly type" person. But I really would like to look better and feel even better than I do.

I think my discontent with my current situation lies in the fact that I believe I can do better for myself if I just try a little harder. I know all the things I should be doing and I can do them all. I just don't seem to be able to manage to do them all at the same time. Maybe I am afraid that once I get to a better healthy place, I won't be able to stay there. This has happened MANY times before, over and over again. Sometimes I just get tired of working so hard at managing my eating and exercising all the time. Managing them requires thinking about them ALL the time. I simply get tired of that.

So let me examine where I am for the present time. emoticon The scale seems pretty stuck between a few numbers; at least it isn't climbing. emoticon For a number of days now, the treadmill has been helping me to manage my chronic pain, even though I am not achieving 10,000 steps a day every day. I am not totally pain free, but in general, I am experiencing a little less pain over the past couple weeks. emoticon And I have managed to sleep up to 6 or 7 hours a couple nights recently - This IS a real blessing! So, I can see progress in some areas. This is encouraging.

Coach Nancy says, "We learn the most not by doing everything perfectly, but by making mistakes and figuring out what to do next." So I am not going to quit. I am going to keep on going. And I will figure out what will work out best for me as I go. In the meantime, I think I will have to learn to be patient with myself!

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  • MISSY455
    Just coming off a huge backslide, I totally get what you are saying about knowing what to do, just putting it all together. Personally, I feel when I start treating food choices, and daily exercise, the same as personal hygiene (automatic and done daily without much thought) is when I will see the results I am looking for. All the healthy habits have to replace the current ones to make them a lifestyle. Best wishes as you figure out your path.
    1371 days ago
    emoticon I get this too, and have to find the right balance between understanding, strategizing and doing without beating myself up. I've found spark helps keep motivation up, so I can keep going, and sometimes motivation seems to evaporate and it's a struggle until the enthusiasm bubbles back up... so hang in, trust the process & keep going! (hugs :)
    1371 days ago
    1372 days ago
    Perfection is to be chased, not obtained. emoticon
    1372 days ago
    great blog .... you will get there, no doubt. roc
    1372 days ago
    "You won't fail if you're not perfect, you'll fail if you're not committed to improving yourself slightly each day."
    1372 days ago
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