Saturday, May 24, 2014
They say insanity is doing the same thing over and over but expecting a different result.
Hello, my name is Ken and I'm insane.
This was the week to turn things around, to put an end to the gaining and post a solid loss. The week to get my head on straight, block out all of the internal noise and get down to business.
Of course that's not at all what happened. Up until Thursday everything was going great, I was set to deliver a loss for this morning. Then from Thursday to this morning I somehow gained 3 lbs (no sodium involved!). This is crazy because by standard thinking I would have needed to take in around 14,000 calories to make that happen (@3,500 cals per pound (3 lbs=10,500) plus approx 3,500 cals to make up for what my body should normally burn over 2 days). I only took in approx 1800 calories both Thursday and Friday, far less than what it SHOULD have taken for me to actually gain weight!
Confusion and frustration, thy name is Ken.
Here's the numbers
Weight : 229.4
Gain : 2.2
Total : 90.6
I am continually sliding backwards and I'm not too happy about it. My head is constantly filled with spinning thoughts and stresses and it's driving me crazy. Lately I've been feeling like getting on Spark every day to get my points, comment and like postings and blogs has become a job. I feel guilty if I don't do enough encouraging or reach out to enough people. But it's driving me a tad bit insane!
I think I'm going to take a break for a while. End my current log in streak at 183 days and just step away for a bit. I'll still be around bcause I'm a creature of habit, but I need to step away at lest a little. Besides, with all of this gaining, I feel like I'm doing a disservice to all of my friends, I'm letting everyone down and not being a good role model.
I won't be gone forever, I'll probably only be gone for a short period of time, hell, most people won't even notice I'm gone (it'll be just like my real life!). But I need to remove some of the pressure that I've created for myself so hopefully I can get back to making good choices and working hard on myself instead of just making excuses every week.
So to all of you, have a great Memorial Day Weekend and remember, it's not about bbq's and beers, it's about those men and women and have laid down their lives so that you can have your bbq and beers. God bless the men and women who answer the call to serve in the armed forces.