Rewinding and Moving Forward
Thursday, May 22, 2014
For today's visualization, think about the last time you got off track with your diet. What caused you to get derailed from your good intentions? Imagine rewinding the memory, but taking a different path where you make better choices. Think of this exercise the next time you're in danger of falling off the wagon.
Cause - I'll just go back to yesterday. I was completing a task that was very stressful and which brought back a heavy dose of emotional pain and anger - i.e. preparation of a document for a mediation process to face a person who has mistreated me. I ate handfuls of Hershey Kiss Chocolates as my fingers typed and my mind furiously rehearsed all the things I want and need to say to this person. Then in the evening I attended a special dinner and I ate everything in sight. The wounded part of me says "give me a break." The angry part says I'll take for myself whatever I want. The excuse-maker part of me says the indulgence will just be for this one time, and it doesn't really matter because I'll get started on the diet again tomorrow. This gives my inner judge strong evidence for its belief in my inner weakness and foolishness and based on this evidence it rules that I am not up to the task of managing my life well. The judged and wounded part of me now has the added burden of despair of ever getting back on track and feels trapped in self-defeating patterns. Overall, I am left feeling displeased with myself and with a sense that my life is out of control.
Rewind - I acknowledge the pain that the distasteful task stirs up. I do need to do it. I stop to think how can I care for myself while I do this. I light a candle as a reminder of goodness, God's love and light. I make a cup of coffee. I set a picture of my family beside me. I promise myself a walk in the garden after I get the job done. I will break up twigs, pull weeds, or go to the gym to work off my anger. I vow to take care of myself through my diet and exercise to defeat with good the "enemy" within and without that would destroy me if I let it.
Acknowledge and decide are critical steps... I'll seek to practice them today.