320: Life after and with Psychosis
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
I picked this simple picture because simplicity is so peaceful! I looked at the title of my blog about a year ago, and I see that I loss 80 pounds. I called it a "spiritual fast' because I was in a delusion where I thought I was doing something for God. I was sick. I do not wish mental illness upon anyone!
Hi my name is Nowelle. I have a mental illness.
That 80 pounds came off quick too. I guess that's what happens when a person doesn't eat for 1.5 months. I have gained about 60 of those pounds back, but so thankful to have learned today that I have not gained all the weight back! I'm taking control again too so I expect these last 20 that came on quickly, to shed off quickly so that I will be back under the 300s again. I look forward to it!
I have missed this life of balance and blogging and social interaction via internet for the last year or so. I just finally got my paperwork organized enough so that I could start up this blog and pay attention to a poetry and Christian blog that I write in sometimes. I need organization around me in order to have more in depth concentrations in my life such as maintaing a blog or maintaining my weight. I hope that both blogging and my weight will improve. I'm so glad that there are places on the internet that I can meet people such as on sparkpeople.com and through wordpress.com. I used to have an online journal when I was in college, and some of those times were some of the best times of my life. I used to get high, watch Coanan OBrien and do my blogging. It's hard for me to make friends sometimes, and since I have been sick with my mental illness for the past 5 years or so, upkeep on relationships has not been my highest priority or, at times, even a possiblity. I'm glad that I am getting well enough to make new friends now and hopefully lose weight.
There are already some good things happening to me in terms of weight loss. I went to a latin cardio dance class last week and then again today. I also bought a used mountain bike and took a brief spin around a local park yesterday. I lived for a couple years on a bike and I feel so at ease with myself and the world when I am flying down the road on a bike. It is something, I guess, that I have some expertise in. It feels good to know that I am good at some things. I'm going through a perdiod of 'who am i" and "where did my life go". I turned 38 and now recovering from the trauma of mental illness so these types of questions are interesting. I'm glad to say that I can ride a bike well, can type quickly and write well, and my cat hasnt left me yet!
Thank you for reading. I'm going to go check out the world online. Have a great week and I'll write more later.