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Smarten up!

Friday, May 16, 2014

I need to smarten up!

That is something my mom would have said and it’s more than appropriate right about now. I have been hovering around the same weight for months now. Fortunately I am back to 2006-2007 weight but I need to see 299 soon or I might lose faith. I think 335 is a mental plateau for me because I have not been below this much or for too long in the last decade.

Anyway, this update on my life needs a little perspective for anyone who doesn’t know me. I went through my mini nervous breakdown or peri-menopausal craze as I like to think of it and quit my job. I was blind-sided by Frankenfoot (reconstructive foot surgery). By the way, latest update on that front is I went to pick up my custom made orthotics the other day and he had to rush away for surgery so he could not stay to grind them down to fit my shoe…..bummer. For the most part I am doing fine with my foot brace for the commute to work, but I kind of thought it might get me a seat on the train more often. The new job is going okay…yeah just okay but as I was reminded it’s a pay cheque and it’s got me engaged in the real world again.

So why then for the last month has the needle on the scale not moved? Things have settled down and I am back into a routine. I no longer have any pain really, I am the lowest weight I have been in 6 years and I can breathe a sigh of relief that I can walk again. So what is my excuse now? Why do I get sucked into cheating ever so slightly every once in a while, enough to make losing weight impossible….Why?

The only think I can think of is that I need to get past this slump, this glitch and remind myself every damn minute of every damn day what I really want from life. I want more than this existence whereby I am just relieved I am not in pain or just satisfied with not being unhappy (by a thread I might add). I need to push myself into a new reality where I might just be happy for a change…not just an absence of unhappiness… true joy….there is a difference.

I need to smarten up!

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
READY4CHANGE81 5/25/2014 7:58PM

    I can totally relate!!! The small changes add up... and so do the small cheats. I work myself to death at the gym to see little progress b/c I MUST control the fork!!!!

Glad the foot is better and hope the new job works out too!!! emoticon

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OCEANWIDE 5/21/2014 10:59AM

    To have this mental breakthrough is gonna help a lot I find sometimes that after reflecting on what has happened and why it's happened I just realise that I've somehow sabbotage myself for a reason and another. That is why tracking is so important. Change is scary, and losing weight, changing so many habits, changing your life, means a lot of change.
Pounds don't always come off the way we hope but eventually as long as we keep going the weightloss will happen, patience is key !
Good luck, I know you can do it. I am happy to hear that things are going well with your new job too.
Have a great day !
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CHERIRIDDELL 5/21/2014 3:23AM

    I hope things improve for you.

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WISHICOULDFLY 5/20/2014 5:54AM

    You can do this Colette. You certainly are smart enough to "smarten up"! emoticon

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MATTEROFHEART 5/19/2014 8:56AM

    I am with you!!!

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JMARIES51 5/17/2014 1:26PM

    Hey Colette - You put into words what I have been thinking about myself (I mean the part about just holding my own with weight - and pushing myself to do what I need to do to lose weight).

If you will bear with me for a minute I want to tell you what I heard, reading between the lines, in your blog, OK?

... I am happy to be back to work and having a good routine. Routine helps me feel balanced and more connected with the world. My job is maybe not as exciting as I was expecting it to be, but it is a good start to getting my feet (pun not intended) stabilized again.
Not so long ago I had some setbacks in my life that left me feeling a bit out of control. My body didn't seem to want to cooperate so I had to take some time off from the rigors of daily living to get myself in balance again. Thank goodness life seems to be back on track. So why am I stuck?
I just want to be on that stream of well being - heading for all the joy, happiness, success, and passion that I know can be mine.

So (this is me talking now) - what it feels like to me is that you are at a point where your life is turning around for you. You were on a slight side trip in your life journey. The road was really very rough and bumpy. The path was not well defined and there were some really scary parts of this side trip. It took awhile to get back to that main road in your life, but you recognize that you are finally back. Now you are ready to start seeing the fun and happy places. I predict that they are just around the corner, my dear friend. -- Now that you are looking for them, they are going to start showing up. The same with your weight loss - it is going to start happening. - This is because you have "Smartened up" and you now are ready to let the good times roll. emoticon Joann

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    You've got it, but don't "push" yourself into the new reality. The other side of "push" is "resistance." Just choose one thing you'd enjoy, something that would put a smile on your face because it feels good and right. Follow through with it. After that, another.... The step-by-step cliche holds water.

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1CRAZYDOG 5/17/2014 9:44AM

    My dear, you've written it That makes it real now. Print it off. Stick it on your mirror or the fridge. . . wherever you'll see it. Sometimes that the "fake it till you feel it" strategy that gets us BELIEVING. You can do this. You know you've got us here for support.

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TWESTEN1 5/17/2014 8:30AM

    Ah Colette, If it were easy we'd all be skinny & healthy! I think the hardest part on this journey is actually finding what works for each of us as individuals. What's worse is when the head knowledge is there... but then our actions contradict what we KNOW we should be doing! You & I are two peas in a pod, and if we didn't live a gazillion miles apart, we would be doing this together :) Sometimes I think it's easier when you do have someone close by who is getting on the scale with you each week, exercising with you each day and just having that accountability right in your face!!!

When I started the Atkins lifestyle I was very good and followed it to a T and the cravings and desire to cheat really disappeared. However, after hitting the plateau for the past few months, I've allowed myself to cheat b/c I guess I start feeling sorry for myself... which is stupid... b/c then I start craving the sugar and stuff again that I know I shouldn't eat. Basically we have to realize that this is something we're going to struggle with for all our lives. Even WHEN we lose all the weight we need to and hit maintenance, we're still going to be working on it. So maybe that's the attitude we need to grab. It's not going to be easy, but we are MORE than capable of doing it. I have faith in you & me both - we're going to be successful... it just may take a bit of time to get there!!!

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SJM1027 5/17/2014 7:28AM

    When I first stated my weight loss I had to focus on myself 100% every day. I was number 1 until new habits became 2nd nature. I started to see results, I looked forward to rewarding myself weekly as I tracked my weight loss every day. You start to feed off your results. You then hear others making positive comments and you feed off of those comments. Soon my unhappiness started to go away and happiness filled in the voids. It takes time, you need a plan, I would set aside the same time every day to work out and do self reflection. In my opinion you have to make you and your goal a 100% priority. When you go to eat the wrong food and we all know when we slip while we are slipping. You need to stop yourself dead in your tracks and quickly divert your focus on your goal not your short term satisfaction. Easier said than done I know but that is how I got through my weight loss hell. I freed myself from a self made prison. Well, we are never 100% free because then there is maintenance. That's another story :)

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RASPBERRY56 5/17/2014 6:48AM

    Ah.......vent on and vent away, my friend! I've done that a bit myself - no shame in doing that........especially if you get a good takeaway from it, and go forward with a clearer head for keeping on in the fight for better health! KING_SLAYER's comment was amusing - never thought of venting as an activity for "Americans only"!

I am notorious for plateauing ("early and often", as that old joke saying goes) - and there have been times that I've felt that I've had to work on "smartening up" in my approach to plateaus - now I've done that once more on this latest attempt to get the body in better shape, and I did break it early - I'm figuring that something is being done right, thought I'm not absolutely sure what that specifically is........



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KING_SLAYER 5/17/2014 12:29AM

    What's this all aboot, eh? A Canadian ranting in public? What will the neighbours think?

I totally get where you're coming from. For me personally, I would be happy with the absence of unhappiness! Then again I've forgotten what it's like to BE happy.

I wish you many positive changes in the near future, you deserve them!

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