I am ANGRY!
Thursday, May 15, 2014
It is almost 1 in the morning and I can't sleep! I am MAD! I can't shut my brain off thinking about all the coulda shoulda woulda and what I need to do and all the EFFING EXCUSES! There is always gonna be crap food around will I die if I don't eat it...NO! If I skip lunch at work because I didn't pack it will I DIE if I don't eat NOOOOO!!!! It is my own fault if I don't have things in place to help me succeed! I am reminded of two very good sayings "Failing to plan is Planning to fail" and "Lack of planning on your part doesn't equal an emergency on my part". So basically what it comes down to is I know I am full of excuses like right now I am awake at 1 in the morning and really I could get called in to work at any time for whatever and if I do will I be tired...yes...is it the end of the world...NO! Does that mean a pass for not working out or eating like crap NO! Does it mean I run a marathon NO but could I do a few laps around the block before I crash and pass out of sleeps YES. Does it mean I might need to skip lunch at work or nibble on some fruit and not get a whole meal...possibly but like what the hell is the worse thing that happens maybe I miss a whole meal that day and only eat fruit UM OH WELL!!! At least I ate something. Is there ever a time when I NEED a fast food burger...nope sure isn't! Do I want is...yes...but actually no because I feel crappy after I eat it, my mouth tastes weird I am hungry again later and it does not nourish me the way I deserve to be nourished. I am an awesome amazing person and I deserve to eat awesome amazing food I deserve to move and run and bend and flex and be strong as strong physically as I feel mentally and as strong as I feel emotionally and just strong! Strong and healthy and fit. I deserve to not get tired walking up stairs, to breath normally and not struggle to be able to tie my shoes and put on socks. To not suck in and squish in to my pants. I deserve all this!!!!!!!!! NO MORE EFFING EXCUSES!