Tuesday, May 13, 2014
I put hungry in quotations because I KNOW that the reality of it is that this, being my one day off a week, is the day where the rest of my weeks worth of TIRED catches up with me.
I am glad I got in two GOOD workouts plus some lawn mowing time this weekend because, the way I calculate my days, I have now missed three days of working out... and to top it all off today I ATE all day long. I KNOW I am not hungry but being at home and tired I tend to make a thousand trips back and forth to the kitchen because I feel like snacking because I am bored and tired and I went over my calorie goal by almost 500 (which is a third of my total).
I would LOVE to go hang out with people but I live in the middle of nowhere and my partner borrowed my car today, and I always feel guilty wanting to leave the house on my one day off because I know my pets need some time with me as well. I moved out to no-where with my partner and we have no friends here (and you can tell by my previous posts, my partner doesn't even hang out with me or pretend to be my friend anymore), .... blah blah blah.
I also ate all day long to try and keep myself awake because I feel like I should be working to clean my stinkin' dirty house, on my one day off, but all I want to do is go back to bed and sleep all day....
and then it snowballs into, I still didn't get a whole lot of housecleaning done becuase I feel tired and so I feel guilty about that, and I feel guilty because I KNOW I have overeaten AND not worked out today... guilty guilty guilty bored tired lonely....what a terrible day after having such a good weekend.