Sunday, May 11, 2014
So, I did it. I've totally flaked on both of my teams - the beautiful Dazzling Diamonds of the BLC and the strong and courageous Maize Mountaineers of the BTS challenge. I've been in such a funk and haven't wanted to do anything. At all. Life is so very stressful right now and I don't know what to do. I know that this is a safe place to come and speak my mind and reach out, but I just don't do it. We've been saving so we would have a nice down payment for a house in Florida but we had to buy a new vehicle because my stupid minivan died - tranny and motor. So we're back at square one with saving and it's really discouraging. My FIL is a total jerk and thinks we need to explain our every movement to him. I don't know. Maybe I'm just making a big deal out of nothing and needlessly spazzing. There are a lot of other things going on that I really don't have the energy to get into at the moment. I haven't focused on my health in months - the last time i exercised was before I got the tattoo on my foot, i got that for my birthday in March.
I just want to say I am so sorry for letting down both of my teams. They are made up of truly wonderful people and I know they will succeed in everything they are trying to accomplish.