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All Mixed Up but am sorting it out

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Over the past week, I have become ,MORE, aware of all the changes that I need to make to get where I want to go. WHile I don't have a specific timetable of what will ( I hope) happen when,I do have goals. SOmehow whenever I make goals I get frightened by the prospects of reaching them. WHat if I really can't do it? WHat if I never lose weight? What if I don't get stronger? ALl these negative thoughts weigh me down and sabotage my efforts.
I have been fighting with GOUT for the last 3 weeks. It is still quite painful sometimes, particularly at night and wakes me from my sleep most nights. I have been managing on 2-3 hours sleep a night and although I doze off during the day, it never is for more than 1 hour at a time. I see the doctor again on Tuesday and I hope he just tells me that it will take as long as it takes. I keep thinking, WHat if it isn't gout, but something else? I imagine all kinds of things. I have been sleeping most nights in my chair in the livingroom as it is the only place where I get relief.
This tells you where I am mentally. I am worn out, over tired, in pain, scared and have no confidence. This is all mixing me up and I know a lot of it is from being so tired.

On the plus side. DH and I have been following my low carb/ High protein diet. We started Tuesday. As I can only eat most green vegetables, 1 egg yolk and lean meats plus all the egg whites I want, I was expecting a boring mundane existence. FAr from it! I am loving what we are eating and am NEVER hungry. I don't crave or snack during the day and only have sugar free Jello for a nighttime snack. I am not weighing in until Tomorrow morning. I am so nervous. I will see the specialist again on the 16th and the truth will come out. I sometimes wonder if I drink too much during the day. I always have a drink with me and go through quite a lot. Does anyone know if there is a point where you can be waterlogging yourself? I take many meds that dry out your mouth and throat and am constantly hungry.

This is just a lot of ramblings. Tonight I feel quite overwhelmed. I wish I could get a break from all this and get a couple of good nights sleep.

Oh yeah, 1 more issue. I went for my physio assessment and I was supposed to begin 3x a week for 8 weeks before another assessment. Because of my leg I cannot do physio. I can't even walk sometimes and I have to take an hour long bus ride and walk to the clinic and then back. Not to mention I can't bear anyone or anything to touch it or put pressure on it. SIgh....

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Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MSEMBERSTORM 6/3/2014 11:12PM

    Hope your leg heals soon. Hugs Gini! You can do this. I am glad to hear the food is working well for you!

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NPA4LOSS 5/13/2014 6:55PM

    The diet sounds wonderful for you. Sending healing thought and prayers. emoticon

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SNUZSUZ 5/11/2014 9:10AM

    I'm sorry you are going through so much! i hope you get it all sorted out soon:)

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MSLZZY 5/11/2014 7:40AM

    So many things going through your mind and issues that are keeping you inactive. Hope your Dr gets is all sorted out. HUGS!

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    I am sorry you are still in pain. Hopefully your Dr can help. I think if your body wants the water then drink it.

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CHRISTINEBWD 5/11/2014 2:39AM

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I am sorry you have been so ill Gini. Hope you get better soon!

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    Gini, I so feel for you with the gout! Have you just started with it? What are they giving you?

I was mis-treated to begin with and it cause me to have a month long gout attack. They then gave me some medication that forced the uric acid out of my system in about a day. It was not a fun couple of days, but I can walk again (I was on crutches).

I also found out that a high protein diet will make gout worse. Make sure you are drinking LOTS and LOTS of water!!! Stay away from pork and pork products as they are the worse when it comes to making gout worse. Also shellfish and alcohol.

Are you on Allopurinol??? That is also a medication for the long-term that helps keep the uric acid down in your system. If you are NOT already on it, do NOT start it until your symptoms are gone!! That's what they did to me which caused the gout to flare badly for over a month!!! If you are already on the allopurinol, it should be OK to continue!!!

Sorry for the medical lecture!!! I just know how upset I was that I'd been mistreated!!!

Good luck!!


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RHOOK20047 5/10/2014 11:06PM

    Sorry to hear of your problems. I suffer from periodic gout, and know the pain. I have very bad knees which hinders my exercises the way I want to. But I won't give up . I have a goal of this week, to make it to the gym at least two times. Make short t ed rm goals that are attainable. Good luck and Godspeed for some relief.

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HEALTHY4ME 5/10/2014 10:19PM

    OH girl so much sounds so familiar.... My knee is still so painful, not the kneecap the outer side of it. Phsyio exercises are hurting other areas, my foot and my back. So one I am only doing on the one side cos it hurt the bad foot so much I wasn't able to move. My back it is only 1 exercise but it didn't bother it when I did it with her.

Glad you are feeling good about the food end of things!!! and you will do well. as for the goals, yea that happens. We can talk ourselves out of lots of things, but just remember how great you will feel..

I too have been thinking man I have gotten so much worse in past month, pain and mobility and get scared that I wont do better, or the knee surgery wont go well cos of other knee and body issues. Have to think psositive. we are at the trailer now and one of the men, his wife just had her knee done yesterday and they had her up walking 2 hrs after!! OMG. and another woman had hers done 6wks ago and will be there next weekend. Shows me it can be done and I will do it.

HUGS you can too!!!

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DEBIGENE 5/10/2014 10:08PM

    Indeed gout is VERY painful, many members (mostly male) of my family suffer from it. I do hope you find the relief you need from your Dr. visit.

I can def understand the issue you mention with goals. I am not good with them either so the only thing that works for me is to make daily goals, so much easier for me to stick to and accomplish. Of course I am not much of a planner either, one of the benefits of being single LOL !!!

I have a good feeling you will get good results when you weigh in tomorrow hon.

Hang in there !!! emoticon

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LADYVOLSFAN1954 5/10/2014 9:33PM

    Gout is miserable and so painful. Lack of sleep isn't helping you either. Make small goals, those that aren't so scary and cause doubts. Small steps aka goals will boost your confidence when you complete them. There are so many things you "need" to do that its overwhelming. That's why you break it into small goals. By that i mean say you need to lose 30 pounds. Well that's a big number. Start with a goal of 5 or 10. Or make a change in one of your habits like the snacks. You've done real well on that. Watch the carbs because if you don't get enough it can cause some serious problems with energy and your thinking. Both of those things need carbs to supply them. Keeping water available is good too. emoticon

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MARYBETH4884 5/10/2014 8:52PM

    I hope everything gets straightened out soon, you get relief from your gout and you get your much need sleep!!

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STEVEN2GO2 5/10/2014 8:32PM

    Have you ever heard of biotene dry mouth products? The last time I saw my Dentists I complained that my mouth and top of throat dries out and I drink a lot of water. She gave me biotene gel. Just squeeze a bit on your tongue and move it around the inside of your mouth. This works great. I use to constantly drink throughout the day, about 160 ounces of water a day, now I drink about 80 -90 ounces a day, and need less bathroom breaks too! I got it from my Dentist, I think you can get it in places in stores that sell oral hygiene products, like toothpaste, mouthwash and tooth brushes. You might want to look for it the next time you go to the store or ask a Dentist.

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STARLITNIGHT 5/10/2014 8:00PM

    Thoughts and Prayers to you. I always heard that you should drink half your weight in oz.'s. So if you weigh 100 pounds drink around 50oz water. 200 pounds drink around 100oz.'s water. And so on. Best wishes!

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