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Self Reflecting and Making Up My Mind

Thursday, May 08, 2014

So I've decide I need to make up my mind on this whole healthy/eating better/workout thing I've been toying with. Yes I said toying with..it's time I stopped fooling myself and decide to either get serious about this or just keep pretending I'm doing this journey. Yes..I know...I've been pretty good getting some cardio in everyday (well..during the week) but I'm so blowing it in the eating dept at home and on weekends. emoticon I need to step it up in those areas. I see myself as failing to move forward. emoticon

You know a few yrs ago, when I started this journey (remember Calorieking?), it didn't seem this hard to keep on track. I can remember losing a pound a week and being thrilled with that. So what happened between then and now? Other then I'm older now. When did it become so hard to see even a ounce of loss...or to not have my weight yo yo up and down? Am I doing something wrong? It was pointed out to me (luv ya Calen!) that maybe alternating between the treadmill and the elliptical in my daily workouts could be a stagnating, maybe my body has become resistant to them. Maybe it's the fact that I've slacked off on doing the workouts at home? There I do more of a circuit/FIT type of workout, working more parts of my body. Plus there is some strength work in the at home workouts.

And why did I stop doing the at home workouts? I can tell myself it's due to time limits or that I'm just too tried. But I think, and here I really have to try and be honest with myself, it's just that I'm too lazy to get off my butt, turn off the boob tube and DO a workout. No easy answers here.

Of course another part of all this is attitude/outlook. As much as I post on this blog positive body images, I guess I need to take a closer look at my own body image and attitude. The attitude that I'm older..I don't have to worry about being skinny anymore. But I don't want to be skinny! I know I'll never be what I weighed in high school again. I just want to feel GOOD about myself. I want to look in the mirror and say..."Not bad for old broad." I want to feel good about my hubby (bless him..he does love me no matter what I look like!) looking at me...naked or not. I want to feel GOOD about myself...to love who and what I am. Having a half ass attitude/outlook will NOT make these things happen. Only I...ME...MYSELF can change how I view ME.

So I'm am here and NOW challenging myself to change my attitude...outlook..habits. I WILL do some kind of workout at night. I WILL work harder at staying within my allotted calories. emoticon

And you my friends..feel free to give me feedback when it looks like I may be off track. After all..we are in this together! emoticon

So that being said...I am doing my lunch time workout tonight at home. With the party planning for work I had to go at lunch to get the last of the stuff we need for it. So my plan is to do my treadmill for 60 mins or so..then a short Your Shape workout. And dinner I WILL reduce my portion size.

OK..that's all I have for today. Happy day before TGIF!!

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    That's a pretty serious reflection there, girlfriend. Funny, but I struggle with practically everything you said, too. (Though exercise is TOTALLY foreign to me at this point! emoticon ) I do wish you would have stopped after the word GOOD. I just want to FEEL good. I think that's the best motivation of all. That's what I want for you. You're ALREADY gorgeous! Hugs, Calen~
    1413 days ago
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    great blog
    1413 days ago
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