Well. Well, well. What to say?
So I'm back here on Spark. I reviewed my weight since 2006 - 8 years ago when I first encountered this tool. I have lost weight, yes, but I have gained so much more over time. None of this is Spark's fault of course. It is all down to me and my challenges of sticking with the plan over the long term. I admit that I am at a loss with this one.
One thing is for certain: until I get my weight down, I won't feel good about myself. At least, not good about my physical self. And I know I don't have 100 pounds to lose, like some poor souls here. But I do have about 40 lbs extra at this point, and mostly in the belly.
Things got even worse after my hysterectomy and the radical onset of menopause. I thought that the depression leading up to the operation (pain, hormones) would go away, but it did not, and I gained even more weight. I don't want to be a fat old lady, but I don't know how to muster the resolve to lose at least 20% of my current body weight. My cholesterol is through the roof, too, and this weight is not helping at all. I am now at the heaviest I have ever been in my life and I feel horrible. My thighs rub (never had that before) and all my clothes are tight. I feel like a blob with no energy and am very depressed about this latest weight gain.
The ups-and-downs of menopause contribute to my feeling that nothing I do gets results. Of course, this is not true, because the overeating certainly gets results, but on the wrong side of the scale.
How to proceed? Even though I have been here before, I think it is still worth expressing my goals. At least it helps me somewhat to write it all down.
May 2014 goals:
Goal 1 - Get back on track, i.e. use trackers on SparkPeople to help motivate on nutrition and fitness goals. Really important to track water and --- MOOD. This is a new item I want to focus on.
Goal 2 - Lose 5 pounds by the end of May. Yes, there must be a number to try to hit, otherwise I will just keep doing 'best effort' type of dieting. I need to get below 160 lbs which is reasonable since I'm at about 164.
Goal 3 - Find a way to be accountable. I hope some of you will help me with this.