I'm not a big fan of New Year's Resolutions. There's a whole negative feel around it--like you have to be very resolved to make it work, and there's something wrong with you that has to be fixed.
I prefer the concept of a New Year's Evolution. Highlighting the way I want to change or evolve over the next year.
The best thing about the concept of "Evolution" instead of "Resolution" is that it's much more of an ongoing process, and less of a "get there and stop" sort of thing. At least for me….
This year, my focus is... Focus. Here's what I had to say at the beginning of 2014:
There are times when I feel incredibly divided by all that I have going on, everything I need to juggle. But rather than focusing on what I need to do NOW, I focus on the struggle. Um, no, I'm not intentionally breaking into some sort of rhyme….
And sometimes, I get so focused on one thing, I have trouble switching to the next item on the list. In those cases, I want to focus on the transition, on making it positive.
Looking forward to seeing what this focus brings me….
I had to laugh when I read that again this morning. Yesterday, I was having one of those days where the processing center in my brain was totally messed up. No multitasking, no multi-threaded processes. Transitions from one thing to the next were terrible... So I just made sure to let everyone around me know I was having one of those days. I guess that counts as making the transition positive? LOL!
As for the juggling.... I guess I still feel like I have a lot of balls in the air. And I'm not sure I'm throwing them right, using the right patterns. Should I be spending more time on this one or on that? Am I neglecting this? Is it about to come crashing down?
So in the spirit of my evolving self, I've been choosing one area to focus on each month, and actually tracking what I've done. I started with a month dedicated to meditating daily (even if it's 5 minutes centering and breathing). Turns out that was a great starting point--it really does help me relax, focus. I've been pretty consistent with it even as I moved on to other areas. Like April with an exercise goal. And now May, with a blogging goal.
I still feel pretty unfocused much of the time. But the advantage of tracking is that I look back and feel amazed at what I actually managed to do....