Sunday, May 04, 2014
I've been a lurker for a long time here. I've lost weight, and put it back on. I've been inspired my amazing people on sparkpages. I still feel a pull to check on my buds, even if they haven't heard from me in a very long time. And I always come back.
Getting to the core of why I don't take care of myself by being healthy, maintaining a healthy weight, treating my body with the respect I want from others, has been confusing.
My favorites here on sparkpeople, have been those who can share their thoughts and feelings honestly, even if the feelings are deep and raw, maybe especially.
So I'm back. I am feeling the need to share. Somehow it feels more substantial if I don't try to hide my process. And really, I don't know that I could do this if any if you were the folks I faced in person each day.
So today, there will be two posts, with the second being of the raw sort as I delve into the emotions behind the weight. I hope anyone who chooses to read the second might be able to relate in the way I've felt understood when I read someone else's raw post.
Carpe diem. With love and respect and gratitude.