I guess it just got too personal and on this TOM rainy awful day I'm home I think I need to pause and breathe instead of over-sharing. So I have to get through 7 more weeks and I probably shouldn't look at it like that and just focus in on the moment. I can make all kinds of material excuses to stay here (new living room furniture, new FiOS TV, a full pantry, new pretty bedding) but all the things we did to make me comfortable here doesn't make up for the lack of company I'm feeling right about now.
I need some workouts. I need to feel better head to work tomorrow, finish off the week and have a good, productive weekend. I feel cluttered and I plan to clean this place out when Summer vacation starts. I'm going through every book shelf and every closet and I'm making big choices. I think I wrote about this plan to get rid of everything old and clean this place in order to go forward. Too many anchors I can't horde all of this stuff anymore. I'll be clearing out a lot this time. Redoing the big foyer closet. I have to make a choice and talk to my family about what I should do, I think I might go visit them for a bit, I keep thinking about it. I almost feel like I've put it off this long might as well stay here, but like I said the other day that fire pit is nice and so are the other perks.