Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Let me catch up the best I can with my April--I have been continuing to gain a little each week, and I'm currently weighing in@20 pounds over my originally achieved goal weight of 148. I'm still calling myself a maintainer, because otherwise I feel like I've failed. I'm trying not to get too down on myself about this--there have been significant hormonal changes over the last several months that I'm still learning how to adjust to. Maybe it's not even reasonable for me to expect to maintain anything lower than 160--I'm still figuring it out. I've had a hard time getting and staying reasonably active lately too. I'm still writing what I'm eating and writing how I'm feeling every day. Been doing a fair amount of binge eating--not everyday, but it seems like it's at least once a week, and I know it's adding up. I am happy with myself though. Would I like to see 10 pounds gone? Yes--definitely, but I know I can't do it overnight, and I have to figure out how to get myself out of the funk that I've been cycling back and forth out of for months. I know there is probably a lot of emotional eating going on--I'm gonna be a grandma by the end of the year, and while this is typically happy news, and I am excited about it--the circumstances are less than ideal. I've been spending a lot of time in prayer--for myself and my son's situation, and I know that is what I need. The school year is winding down, and I'll be off work for the summer, and I'm hoping to have a little more time for me to get back on track better.
Hope you are all having a great day!