Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Today I hit a milestone, the last of the trophys to be won. When I started at Spark in 2011 I had high hopes for the journey and Spark has never disappointed me. I have learned so much and progressed a great deal. Especially I have met on the computer so many wonderful people. I cannot even remotely thank them enough.
True, I still need to lose about 20 more lbs. but I finally feel I can do this. No one has ever said 'why are you still not at goal?' And I appreciate that immensely. Somewhere in my subconscious mind I am still using that last 20 lbs. as a buffer to being all I can be but I am working on that even as we speak. There was a lot to overcome. The loss of my first marriage and the grief this caused me and my children was not easy to reconcile. The loss of most of my siblings and the parents whom I loved so much was also not easy to overcome. But their loss was nothing compared to the realization of their extreme unhappiness in their lives. There is nothing to do but say prayers for them. So, in the meantime am I allowed to be happy? I really have to understand that no one ever promised me all the best in life. I have to be the author of my own story and will it read like an adventure or a tragedy?
So now to list the great things in my life:
I have a wonderful husband who is in hospital right now finally getting better in a very holistic manner. He had a broken body and his spirit was very affected by this. I feel so confident that he will improve mightily.
I have a lovely home, several loving children, 9 fantastic grandchildren and two dogs that are just the best.
I only have 20 lbs. to go and I have all the tools needed to get rid of them slowly.
My health is excellent and I love to walk.
What more can I ask for?
Thank you Spark for being such an amazing site which has taught me so much and given me such happiness. I love you all!!