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I'm getting my shine back! And I won't lose it again.

Monday, April 28, 2014

I can't describe why this attempt feels different than all of the rest, but it does! Inside, my soul is terrified. Has anyone ever watched my 600lb life on TLC? Oy vey... Saw it for the first time last night. It is CRAZY that there are that many people in the U.S. that are that big. Seeing those women and the way that they live was giving me anxiety attacks. My Mom battled with her weight big time. I'm not sure how much she weighed at her largest. My guess is between 400-500 pounds. She eventually had weight loss surgery and got down to around 200, but shortly after that became bed ridden. She is in a nursing home now. I started to see characteristics of myself in these 600 pound women. I started realizing that it is a cruel reality that I could end up JUST like my Mom.

It's time for me to make a big change in my life before I get past the point of no return. Before I get to the point that weight loss surgery is the only option. I hate that I have spent the last 26 years of my life being overweight and insecure. It drives me crazy but it's never too late to make the change. Today has already been a good day so I'm off to a good start.

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I can do this, I just need to put more faith in myself. Here's to a good start!



P.S..... Today's weigh in... 242.2!
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  • LOVEFIT30
    That is a huge wake up call. Glad you see the light. I'm sure we can all take a page or two of what not to do from that tv show. Glad you got your shine back!! Shine on darlin, shine on!! emoticon
    949 days ago
  • BETRHO48
    You CAN do this! Get that shine on and keep it on.
    emoticon and prayers for your success!
    ~Beth
    950 days ago
  • SASSY_1985
    Great to see you back! You can do this!
    950 days ago
  • JENISDOINGTHIS
    This is awesome. Something is different for me too this time. My highest weight was 246. I am down to 224 now. I am taking it slowly and one day at a time. I do need to work on my eating habits but I am slowly getting it together. I haven't cut out any food really. I just eat in moderation. I want to feel good. Looking good will be a good bonus but feeling good is my top priority. emoticon Congratulations on making the first step.
    950 days ago
  • UMBILICAL
    Shine on
    950 days ago
  • ONECALMMOM
    Congrats on your wake-up call.
    950 days ago
  • CNUGIN
    CONGRATULATIONS!!! You have decided to make a lifestyle change. That's what it's all about, LIVING LIFE!! You will have some pitfalls, just pick yourself, dust yourself off and get back to the mission at hand....LIVING A HEALTHY LIFE. Enjoy your journey....Wishing you much success!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    950 days ago
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