I'm getting my shine back! And I won't lose it again.
Monday, April 28, 2014
I can't describe why this attempt feels different than all of the rest, but it does! Inside, my soul is terrified. Has anyone ever watched my 600lb life on TLC? Oy vey... Saw it for the first time last night. It is CRAZY that there are that many people in the U.S. that are that big. Seeing those women and the way that they live was giving me anxiety attacks. My Mom battled with her weight big time. I'm not sure how much she weighed at her largest. My guess is between 400-500 pounds. She eventually had weight loss surgery and got down to around 200, but shortly after that became bed ridden. She is in a nursing home now. I started to see characteristics of myself in these 600 pound women. I started realizing that it is a cruel reality that I could end up JUST like my Mom.
It's time for me to make a big change in my life before I get past the point of no return. Before I get to the point that weight loss surgery is the only option. I hate that I have spent the last 26 years of my life being overweight and insecure. It drives me crazy but it's never too late to make the change. Today has already been a good day so I'm off to a good start.
More meals like this one:
I can do this, I just need to put more faith in myself. Here's to a good start!
P.S..... Today's weigh in... 242.2!