This is so hard!
Saturday, April 26, 2014
Today is day 4, and I know that doesn't sound like a lot...and it might not even be a lot...but I don't go a day without food let alone 4. I surprisingly found this juice fast pretty easy up until this very second. Right now...well right now I would really like a cake (yes,a whole cake), a steak & cheese, or something equally hideous for me, or maybe even all of the above. I have a taste for nothing in particular, yet everything at the same time. I am starving, but not hungry. Basically, I'm at the irrational point I get to during most diets where I feel it isn't worth it, and I don't care to lose weight anyway!!! I'm happy with myself, right? I talk myself into throwing the diet out the window and then feel ridiculously guilty later. Yes, I'm at that point...and I'm trying to talk myself out of it with this post. I am incredibly motivated but not so incredibly consistent and I'm trying to break that cycle. Mind over matter right? I mean in the large scheme of things 60 days is not very long. I have a 12 year old and I can't begin to tell you how quickly 12 years flew by...so why, oh why does 60 days seem like a life time? I'm trying to breathe...and I'm praying that tomorrow is a better day...and I'm praying even harder that I make it to tomorrow. I did not expect to come so close to utter destruction so quickly...fingers crossed :)