Saturday, April 26, 2014
This is the question.
I have been feeling like this lately.
I have asthma and I am not one to let it stop me. I have carried on my merry and sometimes un-merry little way and tried very hard to keep pushing through the issue. Sometimes through tears of frustration at not being able to breathe and run the way I want to. I feel like I have so much potential and these damn lungs just keep holding me back.
Yes, I know that I can burn calories by the other activities that I enjoy such as hiking, biking, walking, skiing, etc. But running has given me so much more then any of those in the 3 years that I have been doing it. The age group medals, the will power and determination, the training for my half-marathon, pushing through all kinds of weather, all of these and just completing races has given me a great sense of pride and such confidence as I have never known before.
I love running for charities that have special meaning to me and tomorrow is a 5K for MS which is something that has been a health issue in my family. My Grandmother, Aunt and Uncle were seriously afflicted with MS and it was their demise. Nowadays, through research and new meds, it is not the death sentence that it was in their time. Anyone of my siblings may carry the gene and be diagnosed at some point in our lives. That is why this race is important to me.
I am a big fan of doing what I can, with what I got, while I can and because I can. I know that every day my life is a miracle and I do not take it for granted. My family thinks I should "just walk" but they don't understand the disappointment that walking will bring me. But they do know the outcome of what running the race will do, asthma attack for sure and hours of discomfort. But I am willing to pay the price, I have done it before. I live through it and recover.
I am a tough cookie or maybe I am just stupid, but I want run.
Have you ever run when you felt that you shouldn't?