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What a mess I am

Friday, April 25, 2014

I was able to "work" from home today. I found absolutely no motivation to work on work.

emoticon I started with a short dog walk
emoticon Then 4.5 miles on the treadmill with quite a bit of easy jogging.
I was sitting at my desk by 9:00 but just could not get motivated for anything.
emoticon I took Sierra for another walk hoping that I would snap out of it.
emoticon I ended up spending loads of time printing another 15 of 23 pictures I have picked out of Utah. I just can't get enough of him. All I want to do is print. I guess it makes me feel closer to him.

I did do laundry but that's about it.
I still have NO motivation to work so I am going to study some.
I will have to fit in some time to work this weekend. emoticon

Oh I also bought myself a Mother's day present. emoticon

I took forever (over an hour) looking at sites and making decisions. I am out of control. Consumed. It is not that I feel overly sad, just obsessed I guess.

It is a "Personalized Swivel Bar Mommys Necklace - Custom Solid Brass Four Sided Spinning Bar Name Necklace".

It is... and from RiverValleyJewelry.
Handmade item
Materials: solid brass swivel bar, sterling silver jump ring, sterling silver necklace
Made to order
Feedback: 854 reviews
Ships worldwide from Shadyside, Ohio

It is say, Kanyon, Aspen, Utah and Sierra.
I also asked about adding a charm that says,
I'll hold you in my heart until I hold you in heaven.

emoticon I have a hair appointment at 5:15 so I will be leaving the house.
I may stop at the store on the way home as I am out of photo color ink. LOL


We have an appointment at 9:00 with the termite people to come into our garage and drill. It is part of their coverage. No termites just preventative stuff. This means we have to empty the garage. This is MAJOR. Should be interesting.

Not sure what DH has planned for the weekend with regards to the acreage. It is supposed to be beautiful. I of course would like to study and take another practive exam at some point.

My boss/the guy I am reporting to is out on Monday. I am tempted to take the day or 4 hours. Ug, who knows. I am sure I will figure it all out.


I think this was during or after the elbow and liver issues.
Love all the pictures. I have printed over 35.
I just miss him so very much.

This is the background on my computer now.
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    I was reading your blogs (enjoying) and just read about the necklace and you said they ship worldwide from Shadyside, Ohio. That is a small village of 4,000 and my hometown. I grew up there. I am going there tomorrow for a week. Such a small small world. I was floored when I saw that. It is just a blip on the map. Love your necklace.
    1167 days ago
    I enjoy looking at the photos of Utah and I really don't think your feelings are abnormal.You are grieving . When my True died I was devastated and did very much the same as you her pictures are still beside my computer and on the wall where I see her every day even though I have a new dog now.A new dog does not replace the love we had for the old one the love in our heart just grows larger. hugs,Cheri
    1242 days ago
    I love your new necklace and the pictures!!! Hope we get to see your new hairdo. Enjoy a super weekend.
    Prayers, blessings and hugs,
    1242 days ago
    Some days are like that. But you did get in some treadmill time - GOOD FOR YOU! And getting you hair done was probably a great thing to do! (Pics please)
    1243 days ago
    I really like the new purchase (swivel necklace). emoticon

    WTG on the mileage! emoticon emoticon

    Supposed to rain here all weekend, blah! emoticon

    1243 days ago
    I love the pics of Utah, such a pretty dog! Healing definitely takes a long time when we lose pets. your feelings are normal.
    It is great that looking at his pictures help you. I am the opposite, if I look at pictures of lost pets, I have a harder time. I hurt so much when looking at the pictures, but I keep them hidden away until I am in a better place and are stronger.

    1244 days ago
  • ALICIA214

    Love it// Thank you.

    Love your over active dog too... emoticon
    1244 days ago
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