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I hit my goal...


Thursday, April 24, 2014

Its been four years since the weight started to come off. Four very long years with lots of ups and downs that sometimes didn't feel like it was worth it. But it was because this morning I officially hit 100 pounds gone. That's huge. Almost like I just lost a whole person. I tried to take a picture of the scale but its digital and wouldn't accept a picture. I might not sound proud enough of this accomplishment, but I am. emoticon

I have to move back to Vermont in July (to attend school) and I am a little worried that this won't last. Living in New Orleans has at least afforded me the ability to walk for lengthy distances with very little problems because everything is flat. Yesterday i went to Audubon park and walk for so long that I honestly have no idea how far it was that I walked, but it was worth it. I hadn't been sleeping and last night I was finally able to get some sort of rested sleep. Plus all the vit d was really good for my mental health. So maintaining this is going to be a bit of a stretch and pretty hard since I hate going out there. Its ironic in a way. I can go out in New Orleans by myself and be alright, but doing that in Vermont and I feel a whole different way-I get to scared to do it. It's pretty pathetic honestly.

Yesterday I pushed myself to get the heck out of the house. the entire time I've lived here, its been pretty much been in the house. I lost my "other half" this winter (his choice-not mine) and also my adventure partner so I've waited to do stuff with everyone, but there isn't anyone. I missed Mardi Gras, seeing so many of the little things I've been craving seeing but since I waited on someone else, they just didn't happen. So finally yesterday despite one very massive panic attack I made myself get out of the house for a few hours. I took the bus, went to the park and had a really nice time. It was really warm which as nice, I should have brought my sunblock-by the time I got home I should have applied it a few more times. (which is why I am staying in today-i got pretty sunburnt). I"m going to miss it here, so figured its time to get done what I can in the time I have left here. (and before it gets too hot).

It's nice that some things are falling into place-good timing too. My birthday is in a week.


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BANANNAPHANT 4/25/2014 2:28PM

    Hooray!!!

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LIZIEBEAN 4/24/2014 8:43PM

    Thank you for all the grats and well wishes :) It means a lot. I am really hoping to be able to come back to at least some place in the South-New Orleans has been amazing and hopefully after school is over I can come back.

Thank you all again :) emoticon

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SWEETRACHEL313 4/24/2014 1:52PM

    CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!! You are an inspiration! emoticon

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DANCINCAJUN1 4/24/2014 11:22AM

    congratulations !! you are doing so well .... you have been down there at the best time of the year .... it does really get hot and humid but it is great as far as I'm concerned ... so many things to do .... and you do notice the difference in the people down that way versus those up here in the north .... so much more laid back and lots friendlier .... so proud of you ... maybe you can return? keep up the good work ! rocie
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JMJLTOP 4/24/2014 11:21AM

  That is an amazing feat you accomplished! You have enough strength and determination to get as far as you have gotten... Don't let your mind play tricks on you!.... You have the strength to get through your fears, even in Vermont.

I get pretty anxious sometimes too. I am more introverted and would rather spend time by myself. I am fine out in public and love people, but I like my alone time too. I had a rough childhood so it is hard for me to trust people. What has helped me tremendously is my puppy dog, Joey. He is my best friend and makes me so so happy. He will never leave me, and all he wants to do is spend time with me.

Keep your chin up. Meditate or pray if you don't already. It will give you the mental strength to get through it.

Congrats again!!!

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SPATTEN2001 4/24/2014 11:03AM

    Congratulations ... that is quite an accomplishment!!! Very proud of your perseverance ... you can continue on this pathway even back in Vermont ... we are here to encourage you all the way!!!!

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