Thursday, April 24, 2014
Its been four years since the weight started to come off. Four very long years with lots of ups and downs that sometimes didn't feel like it was worth it. But it was because this morning I officially hit 100 pounds gone. That's huge. Almost like I just lost a whole person. I tried to take a picture of the scale but its digital and wouldn't accept a picture. I might not sound proud enough of this accomplishment, but I am.
I have to move back to Vermont in July (to attend school) and I am a little worried that this won't last. Living in New Orleans has at least afforded me the ability to walk for lengthy distances with very little problems because everything is flat. Yesterday i went to Audubon park and walk for so long that I honestly have no idea how far it was that I walked, but it was worth it. I hadn't been sleeping and last night I was finally able to get some sort of rested sleep. Plus all the vit d was really good for my mental health. So maintaining this is going to be a bit of a stretch and pretty hard since I hate going out there. Its ironic in a way. I can go out in New Orleans by myself and be alright, but doing that in Vermont and I feel a whole different way-I get to scared to do it. It's pretty pathetic honestly.
Yesterday I pushed myself to get the heck out of the house. the entire time I've lived here, its been pretty much been in the house. I lost my "other half" this winter (his choice-not mine) and also my adventure partner so I've waited to do stuff with everyone, but there isn't anyone. I missed Mardi Gras, seeing so many of the little things I've been craving seeing but since I waited on someone else, they just didn't happen. So finally yesterday despite one very massive panic attack I made myself get out of the house for a few hours. I took the bus, went to the park and had a really nice time. It was really warm which as nice, I should have brought my sunblock-by the time I got home I should have applied it a few more times. (which is why I am staying in today-i got pretty sunburnt). I"m going to miss it here, so figured its time to get done what I can in the time I have left here. (and before it gets too hot).
It's nice that some things are falling into place-good timing too. My birthday is in a week.