Thursday, April 24, 2014
I had a Dr. appointment yesterday and found out that I've lost another 10 lbs since last month! I was so amazed and she was so happy. Even the nurse was excited. It was nice to have their support. They look forward to my visits. So do I. I feel like I'm finally gaining some control when it comes to my depression, and that's huge! I'm on a lot of medication for it, but I just don't care. All I can think about is the fact that I'm climbing out of this hole I've been in for years!
I went through Matt's things with my family yesterday and it was so hard. I will be doing again today. Having things that meant something to him and me is nice. I feel connected to him somehow. It doesn't make the pain any less, but it's a start. His memorial service is on Sunday and I'm just not ready to say goodbye to him yet. I know I have no choice in the matter, but it is too hard to imagine right now.