Tuesday, April 22, 2014
It's been forever and a half since the last time I blogged and I've been doing really, really well!!! Well, in terms of exercise... my eating habits are still crap. I have little willpower. I really need to wake up and do this. But first things first:
Exercise: I'm doing awesome and am very proud of myself! I have a gym buddy from work, someone I had always wanted to get to know better and I am becoming friends with. We keep each other accountable and motivated. Even better - even when I know she can't make it I still go! That's a huge thing for me, especially since we go in the mornings. I have always, always, always been a night owl. My natural circadian rhythem has always had me up at night, but consistantly waking up at 5:30 to go to the gym has helped my body adjust. It took several weeks, but finally after those long weeks of pushing myself and being tired my body is adjusting to a 5:30am wake up time and is able to fall asleep earlier at night. Now I'm in bed by 10pm with lights out by 10:30ish (normally). Even on a weekend I'm usually in bed by 10-11pm, and sleeping in on the weekend is now 7-7:30am. It's been amazing, but took a lot of dedication and hard work.
The gym has been great and I've been steadily improving every week. I'm still trying to find my rhythem there: rest days vs push days. Sometimes I'll go and think that I'm well rested and my legs are good to go and I"ll have a really rough time trying to make it through, and other times I'll think I'm really going to have to push myself and turns out I can make it through with a smile on my face. Sometimes it's vice versa. I know there are several factors that play into it: how much sleep I got, how well fueled my body is, how much water, how tired my body is, etc. But I'm working on finding that sweet spot. I steadily moved along on my jogging routine so that I just finished my: 2 minutes of walking and 2.5 minutes of jogging 7 times and tomorrow/next jog day is walk for 2 minutes and jog for 3 minutes 5 times.
Right now I have two things I'm training for: 1) is the wedding I am a bridesmaid in. I have no real goals for that one other than to feel good about my hard work. 2) is the Mudderella in September. I opted out of the Warrior Dash, which I'm pretty happy about. Long story short, the people i was going to do it with had to cancel when the race date was moved, so I opted for the refund rather than doing it myself. It felt really good to cancel out, my workouts went from feeling like I HAD to do specific things because I had to get ready for the race, whereas now I get to do more of what I WANT to do because I have a lot more time to train for the Mudderella. I'm super duper excited.
BUT - the problem is that my eating is still complete crap! I have no willpower! I'm so frustrated with myself when I think of the past 4 weeks and how awesome I have done exercise wise, but I've lost ZERO weight and my clothes don't fit any better, and it's because of my eating. The good thing is, now that I'm got a good gym routine and my life is pretty routined with prepping my gym bag and getting ready for bed earlier and such, I can start putting more of an effort into my dietary habits without feeling overwhelmed.
My basic problems are: 1) I eat clean or well for most meals, but then I eat crap between meals or too much at a meal. I need better portion control and to throw away/give away the crap I'm eating. Part of the problem is that I have several work friends and I kind of rotate through doing things with them, so they might only be eating ice cream once a week but I'll end up eating it 4 times a week because I'll go with each of the different groups or something, you know? So yesterday I had a couple of friends I hang out with who went for smoothies, today another friend asked if I wanted to go for ice cream, tomorow some other friends are going out to lunch and invited me, my brothers kids are off from school this week so I'll be going out to lunch with them and my sister in law this week, etc, etc. It just goes on and on. And it's not a matter of finding a healthy option where we go - it's a matter of needing to be able to find a way to say to them, I don't want to go for ice cream how about we take a walk around the building instead. Or if I say I'll go for the ride but don't want one and they friendly pressure me into getting one (once I even left my wallet behind on purpose so I couldn't buy one and one of them offered to buy it for me rather than me not get one). I'm so closed with certain things, but I feel like if I just tell them, "no thank you, I'm really trying to watch what I eat because I'm training (or trying to lose weight or trying to eat in moderation or am nervous about becoming diabetic, etc) that they will support me, I just need to spit it out instead of being secretive about it.
So my upcoming goals are to eat cleaner, not eat so much crap, and to keep working hard at the gym. This morning when I weighed myself (on the last day of my TOTM) I was at 209.4. I'm shooting for as many pounds and inches as possible by eating clean and exercising by my next check in. I would love love love to be in the 180's by the wedding, but considering I'm strength training and not doing a fad diet or anything I'm not sure if that's feasible. But who knows - we'll see!
Hope you're all having a Sparktastic day/night!!!