It's been a week since I wrote my last blog.
We had a good time over the weekend with lots of social activities. Dinner out with friends on Friday, hosting our family get together on Saturday, and Easter lunch with friends on Sunday. After spending so much time alone during chemo and after recovering from surgery, I felt like a social butterfly.
It was nice, but I'm such an introvert/hermit that it seemed a bit overwhelming. By Monday, I just wanted to be by myself. I spent most of the day in bed reading. While I love to read, I feel like yesterday was kind of like a "lost day." I didn't exercise....and didn't exercise any on Saturday or Sunday either even though the weather was great.
This morning, i woke up early and have had time to think about the last few days and yesterday in particular. I don't want to spend a lot of days like I did yesterday....basically doing nothing.....when I'm not sick. Even though I'm still in treatment for cancer, this phase of treatment is like a "clean-up" phase. Fundamentally, I'm okay. While I need to respect my body's need for rest during radiation treatment, I don't need to treat myself like a full-blown invalid. That's kind of what I did yesterday.
I'm hoping my cancer will never return, but if it does, I don't want to feel that I've wasted this time of relatively good health. With my particular type of cancer, it's most likely to recur within the next three years. I want to make the most of the next three years....and not lie in bed all day in a dark room when the weather is beautiful outside.
So....today is a new day. As it happens, it's raining here this morning, but I'm going to make it a good day.
One of the things I did to regroup this morning was to redo the motivation section on the Start Page of SparkPeople. I really like what SP has done in that area of the Start Page. The chances of cancer recurrence are lower for me if I do certain things like exercise 30 minutes a day so I have a lot of motivation to do those things. Seeing them each day when I start up SparkPeople is a wonderful reminder to me of WHY living healthy is so important to me.
I feel fortunate to be alive. I want to make the most of it each day that I can. Time to regroup....and move forward!
PS. Tomorrow will be another mini-milestone for me in treatment. I will be half way done with radiation, the last leg of my 9 month journey in treatment. Thank you for all of your support along the way. It's been invaluable and I appreciate it more than you will ever know.