Ughh I want my life back.
Monday, April 21, 2014
So I weighed myself this morning and I weigh 182, which is nearly 20 pounds gain since my last weigh in three months ago at 163.5. I am absolutely disgusted. I have gotten to the point where I eat and eat until I physically feel sick, then feel so guilty that it got to that point that I just keep eating, and then sometimes drink to forget that the whole thing even happened. Like seriously, who does this? I clearly have a lot of issues that I need to work through.
But I WANT my body to feel good again. I can kind of remember what it felt like when I was so focused on my healthy habits, and I want that feeling back. So I have decided to get my butt back to the gym and start eating healthier. I want to say that I will have the same motivation and perseverance that I once had, but I know that this time I have a long, rocky road ahead of me to get there.
With the help of SP's Nutrition Tracker, I have devised the following eating plan:
Cal Fat Carb Prot Fib
FiberPlus Bar 120 4 26 2 9
Dannon Yogurt 80 0 16 5 0
Cantaloupe (1c) 54 .5 13 1.5 1.5
254 4.5 55 8.5 10.5
Avocado (1/3 of 1) 106 9.75 5.7 1.3 0
Beets (sliced, 1/2c) 53 .2 12.2 1.5 3
Perdue Chicken (.5c) 90 2 1 16 0
Hardboiled Egg (1) 211 14 2 17 0
Ken's Lite Bals (2tb) 60 4.5 3 0 0
Romaine (1/2c) 8 0 2 1 1
528 30.5 26 37 4
BF/LUNCH totals 782 35 81 45.5 14.5
DINNER ~618 ~25 ~119 ~15 ~10
SP gave me the guidelines below which is where I got my dinner totals for above:
Consume between 1200 & 1550 calories
Consume between 27 & 60 grams of fat
Consume between 135 & 252 grams of carbs
Consume between 60 & 136 grams of protein
Consume between 25 & 35 g of Fiber
Consume at least 8 cups of water per day.
I know this plan will not work forever, but I think to get back in the swing of things I am really going to need a concrete plan that I can stick to religiously. Once I start seeing some results and get my motivation back, I will adjust accordingly.
So I hope this will all work out. If any of you have ever been in a rut like this before (which I know most of you have!), PLEASE feel free to give me any advice you might have. I can't even remember how I went from doing so well and feeling so good to allowing myself to let it go downhill so quickly. So I especially don't know how to find my way back now that it has gotten to this point. Any advice would be appreciated.
Thanks all! Hope you had an awesome Easter weekend!