My report card for the week would not be an A+! After coming back from a 10 day break, I should feel rejuvenated and full of energy. I had a good 3 days immediately after and last weekend was nice. Then this week I was dragging... I had no energy.
It was very difficult to keep up with my training plan I got most of it done:
Sunday - Hubby and I went for a walk at the lake (3k) and later for a second one at home (2k)
We also went to the farmer market and I prepared a nice breakfast (Berry waffles with fruit). The "gingerbread cookie" was dessert for the night - a specialty of one of the vendors at the market.
Monday: Random cycle level 3 (30 min) - 17km ; 75 min Hot Yoga
Tuesday: 6.5km (30 min) on treadmill + 2k run outside (9 min) ; 75 min Yoga Hatha
Wednesday: I justed wanted to go home and call in sick... My hubby encouraged me to do a few things at the gym "with" him... so we did 40 min of cardio! Thanks!!! 20 min speed walk on Curve treadmill (Green treadmill with incline) 2.6km and 20 min of Cycle Level 3 - 11.6km
The story here came on Thursday AM. I had a full dialogue for the 45 minutes prior to my running training. I woke up as usual. Got dressed in my running gear and grab all my bags because I was going to leave from work for Easter weekend - which starts with a long drive to Quebec city, my hometown.
In the car driving to work to start my day... my brain was playing tricks on me.
Here is my internal conversation... in capital letters is what took a lot of me to convince me to GO.
- I am too tired. Maybe I should skip.
- NO - It will give you energy and you have a long day sitting in a car.
- (looking at the weather indicator - it is about freezing) I am not dressed warm enough!
- NO - you will be fine once you get moving... you know it is an excuse if it is that bad YOU can go to the gym and train inside...
- I don't want to train inside. Maybe I should park at work, drop my bags and run from there.
- NOT A GOOD IDEA - You know that if you turn on your computer, you will start something and you won't get your run in - STOP the sabotage and GO...
- I could park at work and run toward the range
- DO YOU REALIZE HOW LUCKY YOU ARE - training is part of my job.
- I don't want to go to the Range Road- it is very exposed to the wind.
- How about the trail!?!
- What is the goal of the day? Just GO! It is not a chip race! Going is better than skipping.
- It is so quiet in the trail. It will set you up in a good mood. (then thinking about my reward conversation with my therapist - running can be a reward... don't make it a punishment!)
So I made a left turn at the light and parked at the Trillium Trail. I was ready to go for 8km (5 miles) as per my training plan was indicating. I started running and my legs were so heavy. I felt like I could not move and my stride was super short. After 500 meters, I looked at my forerunner and...
- Maybe I should turn around?
- What!!! You are outside, it is nice... there is some snow on the path but it is ok - there is a reason for it -so you would me mindful of where you step and remember the goal - not a timed run, just a NICE RUN. KEEP going...
My therapist pointed out to me earlier this week that when trying to be mindful you can only pay attention to one thing... so shift the attention to the positive and let go of the rest. So I started paying attention to noise of my breathing ... and how loud cracking the ice under my steps was. "RING" My watch caught my attention - 3k! Almost half way there! At mid-point, I even thought I could go for 10k instead of 8... but I was running out of time, I had a meeting to attend... Let's enjoy this.
On way my back, I noticed that the trail looks different from this side. I thought of the support I have from people around me... I am thankful!
I saw 2 woodpeckers - yeah! maybe I am not running fast enough
- they were on a big log laying against a dead tree. On my way back, I also notice that the snow/ice on the trail had time to melt so my fist and last miles were very different!
I DID it! and I FEEL
. Time - of course I was not going for time but I always track my time... well, same as usual. So thinking slow made me go as fast I a go at pace. NICE!
As I am writing this from a café with my daughter sitting across the table (she is studying for exams), I am debating with myself my long run for the weekend. I made it to Quebec (it took me 12 hours) and I am enjoying my time. Again, I am not tracking food and I am sure the scale will be UP! It is ok, I can fix that during the next 5 weeks that will lead to the Marathon.
SO for now, I am enjoying eating out too... and making it a special time with my college girl!
Ok... enough blogging for now - GOTTA GO for a RUN! and Celebrate Easter weekend with my sister and family.