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Murky Waters

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Lately, it's been difficult to focus on weight loss, because so many other things are happening. I'm graduating with my Bachelor of Science in a month, but I'm not happy about it. I don't deal well with change, and this one has thrown me back into a cycle of depression. I have sought out a counselor, and am working to get better, but it's slow going.

This, of course, has taken its toll on my motivation, my energy, and my routines. I have not been working out regularly, or eating well. I'm slowly getting my motivation back, so I'm cooking a few healthy meals this weekend to get me through the week. I may have to call a friend who can kick my butt until I go to the gym. If all else fails, I will remember to be kind to myself and snuggle the puppy.

That's the wonderful thing about having a dog. Your dog loves you even when you can't love yourself. My dog thinks that I am beautiful and wonderful, and that I am the best mommy ever, even if all I manage to do that day is feed her and take her for a quick walk around the block. I could make a complete mess of things, and she would still love me because I pet her and hug her.

I'll get better. I always do. I just hate that I let myself fall back into this cycle of self-hatred and fear that I thought I'd escaped from permanently.
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    Thank you very much for the encouragement! Best of luck to you, as well!
    1209 days ago
    How exciting to be earning your degree. Celebrate yourself with one benefit, like drinking water. Being overwhelmed can derail the best intentions. Good luck with your journey.
    1222 days ago
  • COOP9002
    Blessings to you on your journey. It's good to hear that you're doing something about your struggles and you have someone to encourage you.
    1222 days ago
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