Saturday, April 19, 2014
Lately, it's been difficult to focus on weight loss, because so many other things are happening. I'm graduating with my Bachelor of Science in a month, but I'm not happy about it. I don't deal well with change, and this one has thrown me back into a cycle of depression. I have sought out a counselor, and am working to get better, but it's slow going.
This, of course, has taken its toll on my motivation, my energy, and my routines. I have not been working out regularly, or eating well. I'm slowly getting my motivation back, so I'm cooking a few healthy meals this weekend to get me through the week. I may have to call a friend who can kick my butt until I go to the gym. If all else fails, I will remember to be kind to myself and snuggle the puppy.
That's the wonderful thing about having a dog. Your dog loves you even when you can't love yourself. My dog thinks that I am beautiful and wonderful, and that I am the best mommy ever, even if all I manage to do that day is feed her and take her for a quick walk around the block. I could make a complete mess of things, and she would still love me because I pet her and hug her.
I'll get better. I always do. I just hate that I let myself fall back into this cycle of self-hatred and fear that I thought I'd escaped from permanently.