Looking back to move forward...
Friday, April 18, 2014
Having been an active Sparker previously leaves me with the unique advantage of being able to look back. I am reading some of my blog posts to see where there was success and where there was failure.
I don't want to repeat the past failures if I can help it.
1- I am relieved that I just don't seem to be flying through such vast ranges of emotions like I use to. I'd like to think that I tempered with age, but I'm guessing it has more to do with the immense reduction in stress in my life, as well as having a truly great partner at my side. Back then I was working a ton to try to earn enough to keep my business going in addition to managing a no-win relationship. These days my career is thriving, I'm in healthy relationship and I count myself among the very luckiest of people.
2- I think I was trying to eat whatever I wanted and force it to fit into the calorie constraints of healthy living. The reality is that you can't eat everything you want and still stay on track. Sometimes you can have some of what you want. It's amazing how mindful you have to be to cover your nutrition bases every day. There is not room to just eat willy nilly. High fat high calorie eating leaves you with small portions and HUNGER... not to mention cravings.
When eating lots of fruit, veg, and fiber I have found myself getting sick of eating towards the end of the day. My tracking pie charts look like crazy pinwheels with the variety of healthy foods I'm packing in.
I know that my approach is different as I'm already down 8.4 pounds since 4/1, with a reduction in fat of 1.5%. I'm looking forward to progressing. I'm excited for my first benchmark of taking 30 pounds off. I can see it happening.
3- I miss my SP friends. I did not want to be held accountable for my failure, and I let my friendships slide. I really regret that. It was a dark phase for me and they would have been great if I had let them be there for me.
I'm glad to be back on the road to well being. I'm glad I'm seeing success so far.
I know that there will be challenges. To date we have been at home where I can cook and shop and take the time to track everything that "goes in my pie hole" (as I so eloquently stated 4 years ago); however, that is not always going to be the case.
One day at a time. So far so good...