Thursday, April 17, 2014
Why? Because four years ago you took my beloved grandmother from me. Some days it still doesnít feel real. If feels like just yesterday that I got the phone call that changed my life. Thatís right one phone call changed everything! Then a day later we heard that one sentence that no one ever wants to her ďItís cancerĒ You go through life hearing this horrible heartbreaking stories of people who have lost loved ones to this horrible disease but you never think it could happen to you. Well it did and it can. I remember thinking this canít be happening, there must be a mistake, but of course there wasnít. The diagnosis was clear brain cancer. We fought as family for just over a year, and sadly on 4/17/21010 we lost our battle. I try to be thankful for the time with did have but its hard I am still so angry. Not only that cancer took her, but that it also took a year of my life, precious time with my son that I can never get back. From March 09 till April 17, 2010 my life pretty much revolved around my grandmother , her appointments and her care. My oldest was only 2/3 at the time and I feel like I missed so much and he missed out. A 2 year old should not have to spend hours in a hospital waiting room or celebrate Halloween at a nursing home. See thatís one of the things I did not fully realize about those heartbreaking stories that I used to hear until I went through it myself. A cancer diagnosis doesnít just affect that person; it affects everyone that person loves in ways that are unimaginable. So F U cancer for not only taking my grandmother from me but taking a year of my life. You suck! Because of you she didnít get to see my oldest son start school, take the football field for the first time, loose his first tooth, or hear his first knock knock joke. She did get to be by my side as we welcomed my youngest son into the world, and she wonít be there to witness me marry the love of my life. There of countless events, milestone, and memories that she wonít get to be a part of because of you. So in case I havenít said it enough F U cancer.
My heart truly goes out to anyone who has ever been affected in any way by this horrible disease. People always say that tomorrow if never promised but I took that for granted until this tragic event changed my life. So hug your loved ones, tell them how you feel, and never go to bed angry because you never know when one phone call could change your life.