Thursday, April 17, 2014
I made it to work but was feeling terrible by then and simply checked in with the boss and headed back home. But I was too ill to ride the subway so I got off early to get the fresh air (phew!) and walked the rest of the way home. Outdoors I could cope, indoors I felt nauseous. I walked slowly but steadily and shopped at the fruit and veg markets as I trudged along, and then came home and went straight to bed and slept for about four hours straight. I was convinced I would eat almost nothing all day, I felt that terrible.
Well lo and behold, when I got up at 4 to pick up the kids from school/daycare, I took some medication and gradually felt a bit better. And they were in fine form so we went to the church supper we'd planned on going to, and I have to say, I felt half decent once there. And better and better as time went on. And I ended up having a small dinner there -- easily avoiding the dessert tray, and came home and baked for a potluck brunch tomorrow, and felt even better, to the point where I finally had a second dinner -- steak -- before going to bed. Beef is one of my absolute favourite red-light foods, but I'd just found steak on sale and I had consumed very few calories all day, so the stars had aligned for me to have one whole ribeye steak. And I savoured every bite. It was just perfect. And I could still go to bed not even feeling full, because I'd not eaten much and ate the steak unaccompanied by other calories.
So that's a funny bonus to my sick day -- it ended up allowing me a lovely rare treat of red meat, and a large portion at that. And now I can go weeks again without feeling the absence of an otherwise high-fat high calorie food, or settle for the very lean beef kabobs at the local butcher.
Hopefully whatever illness I had will relent and allow us a decent Easter weekend. I can't imagine I'm contagious as the kids are hale and hearty. Tomorrow is the neighbourhood egg hunt -- I've got about 200 eggs to hide in my yard -- and then the neighbourhood pot luck, which promises to be a big crowd at the neighbour's house. And I even tried a new recipe for it -- a baked French toast. Far from low calorie but I know there will be lots of other things to choose from and it got rid of all the egg yolks I've been accumulating from my new low-cal zucchini bread recipe.
Now I just have to avoid the Easter chocolate ;) But the other funny thing is that I'm tracking my food so diligently, I'm really aware of the calorie value of food. And it puts in stark relief what my priorities are when I have to choose. Tonight there were all kinds of desserts at church -- chocolate brownies and lovely looking bars -- and they just weren't worth it to me. Instead I went for the steak when I got home. I love learning that I can prioritize and choose what is important to me depending on my taste. I remember reading a book about mindful eating where the advice was to eat what you TRULY wanted, rather than eat your way through all kinds of healthy food ... and eventually also eat what you really wanted in the first place. Tonight I was able to skip the things I didn't really want, and ended up being very happy to eat what I desired more than all.