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Wednesday, April 16, 2014

I have not been on here since Oct 2011. I read my last blog about how positive I was after being paralyzed and then going through the recovery to walk again. I cannot believe it was that long ago. My brain had been affected and I have just realized lately to what extent. I think I just forgot about Spark and stopped coming by. I know I would be doing something and completely forget what I needed to do.
I also forgot myself. I mean I literally felt like I was no longer the same person inside this body so needless to say I forgot what I was trying to accomplish with regards to getting healthy. At this point I don't even want to continue trying because of how lost inside I feel. Who am I doing this for. Big family dinner is coming up for Easter and I don't want to deal with anything right now. Maybe I will come back after Easter and all that is over with.
Oh ya and of course I put all my weight back on, up to 265 and at this point I really don't care. I feel like what is the point of trying if I just constently fail and then feel bad about myself.

I felt really good this morning but for dinner we had pasta, one of my big trouble foods and now I feel so completely depressed and down. Not because I ate what I should not have, but I think high carb foods are messing with my sugar levels because I suddenly, 1 hr after eating feel completely crashed out! I can't think clearly. I'm out.
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  • JACKIE542
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    emoticon Just the idea of your coming back to visit is a good thing. We all go through, to get to and love yourself enough to get back in the race. emoticon No one stated you have to give up with your enjoy, everything in moderation. emoticon Come back and get your motivation! emoticon emoticon
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