Monday, April 14, 2014
I haven't really been on here in a while. I have been so extrememly focused on everyone else, that I have not really been giving myself a shot in the world to do better for myself, which has to change because it really is not healthy for me. I am going back and doing a Losing your first 10 pounds challenge, and today is day 7. I am getting ready to go into a diet detox which I am really excited about (I start tomorrow) in which I try to focus on finding new healthy things that I enjoy rather than following a plan that makes me absolutely crazy. I really look forward to really finding myself over the next two weeks and really being present and aware of myself and my body. I am always so focused on the past and the future that I never stay focused on the present because all I think about is how today will change the outcome of tomorrow. But anyway, over these next two weeks I will not be following a plan of any form I will just be going with the flow of life, and figuring out what feels good to me wether it be journaling, going for walks, you name it. That's going to be my goal. Plus, I hope to keep up with the journal prompts and things of that nature. I can tell this time I am really going to have to train my brain to fight for this because I feel like it just wants to give up, but I am not ready to yet because I know that I can do this, no matter how long it takes me. Peace with my body has truly been this biggest struggle for me, and I know that it is all in my head. I just want to find my happiness, and I am not saying that losing weight will make me happy I am saying that being in my own head and knowing myself better through Vitality will help me. I just want to feel good and be happy. Is that too much to ask for? I love you all, thanks for all of your support!