Monday, April 14, 2014
I joined a gym and am really happy about it. Today was my first day. It's supposed to be a 'judgement-free' zone but, of course, I overheard two women talking about 'fatties' in the bathroom. When does it end? It took everything I had to join, everything I had to get out of bed today and go, everything I had to step on that treadmill knowing all I could do was 30 minutes. It was hot, I was sweating and really uncomfortable. Like, really. I wiped down my station. I put on deodorant so I didn't smell, and then they go off about how gross that feeling of sweating is while putting down overweight people for running on the treadmill? How about either not making any comment or thinking 'wow, look at her go?' or, better yet, just focusing on YOUR workout and not everyone else's? I know I shouldn't be taking this to heart, and I wasn't working out when they were, but I've dealt with being overweight my entire life. Kids used to poke fun at me in middle school, so the comments hit a little too close to heart. Nobody seems to understand how sensitive I am about those comments. They think, 'You're strong. Why let it bother you?' I'm only human, though. It won't stop me from going, but I'm definitely bringing headphones and tuning everyone out. People can be so mean.