Monday, April 14, 2014
I want to use the metaphor of "coming home" as a guide for my return to my ideal weight. I am still adjusting to jet lag from a flight home from Spain. The trip was a tremendous gift of renewal and spiritual blessing. But when I pulled my last clean shirt out of my suitcase I realized I was ready to come home, and not just because I needed to do laundry. It was time to incorporate what I leaned from the journey to Spain and the Canary Islands into the commitments I have made in the place I now call home. I am tempted to kick myself for the multiple accumulated steps I've taken to gain weight instead of maintain it. But now that I think about it, my mind has been focused and stressed about other goals and priorities that became urgent since the beginning of this year. These matters are not an excuse for ignoring the skill I need to perfect in order to manage weight while also pursuing and focusing on other priorities. But it is a way of extending some compassion to myself as I "travel" toward the accomplishment of various objectives in my life. Looking back I see that good things have been accomplished during this time but at the same time a series of little choices over the past several months were made which took me back from being in great shape physically. While focusing on other "travels" I relaxed my exercise and food intake disciplines. Without consistent tracking I drifted away from being alert to little ways in which I was slipping away from my new "home" of living in medium sized shirts and loose fitting smaller waist pants. I am still wearing those new clothes but they are fitting a bit tighter. I am ready to get back to my new physically fit home. I am thankful the return will not be too difficult. I am still forty pounds lighter than when I first started with Spark People. Ten pounds gets me back to the front door of my new healthy home and a few more will get me safely back inside my new home. It will feel good to be back home. I am ready to start the journey back home today.