Sunday, April 13, 2014
"Always we begin again"
(And again)..thus begins the rule of Saint Benedict and the Benedictines. I am still extremely fascinated by them.. and it seems especially apt for this blog. Blogs are a nemesis to me because Iím not consistent enough to keep them going. My lack of constancy in general over days, weeks, and months, was surprisingly repetitive over a period of years. Strangely enough, I live and learn in ďcycles,Ē one thing striking my fancy for weeks and days, only to be replaced by the next thing that I abandoned ere ago, for the following period. This is something brought to my attention by others around me. I didnít notice it on my own, but it makes sense now. It is not a successful way to go about doing things. It is born of disorganization and a sustained lack of focus.
Barbara Sher mentioned this type of shifting in one of her PBS Specials in the 1990′s and suggested that people divide the year up so they can pursue more than one type of goal. I didnít realize this cycling was true of me, so I didnít pay much attention to that part of her speech. So far I recognize some of my interests, but the time they are pursued varies according to my attention span, and my attention span needs work.
This blog is therefore an attempt to undo the cycles of interest and plan them all within the same week or month period of time. Though this may seem impossible, I think I can up what I do by reducing the hours I spend asleep. My ultimate goal is to quit marathoning goals and interests, since that leads to dropping them while still incomplete. Leaving as much incomplete as I usually do is crushingly embarrassing to me, so Iím hoping to make finishing a habit that I can hold onto.
I will try to make the writing descriptive, but Iím not sure it will be interesting. Iím hoping my family members and some friends will read it. My goal is to blog at least once a month. I feel confident I can do at least that much because WordPress can be set up to remind you to write. And I have. If I was Buddhist or Hindu I could write something here of being made free from the endless cycles of rebirth.. Because I want to be free of the endless cycle of running and not getting anywhere!! I want to be Born Again into a new Creation! One that can help me create and live with the Creatorís design in mind. I want the graph of my life to look like I am climbing toward the top of a set of foothills and a mountain rather than a spiral up or down!
(I've reposted my WordPress post here for SparkPeople users.. )