Saturday, April 12, 2014
The last couple years, and the last 6 months in particular, have been progressively more and more stressful. I'm starting to have some more health problems because of the stress. Alcohol, of course, doesn't help, so I've been making a concerted effort the last couple of weeks to cut back.
The down side for me is that when I don't drink, I sleep more deeply—which means I go back to my pattern of extremely vivid dreaming. Now I'm dreaming about the stressful situations in my life as if they were actually happening, so I wake up even more stressed and upset than I was the day before.
That mood ticker on the front page of SP is rough. Every morning, I look at it and have to honestly click a 1 or 2. Maybe if I start clicking a higher number it will become true?
I need better stress management techniques. The problem is that even when I go work out or go for a walk or what have you, I can't get away from it. The second I come home, or check my email, or my phone rings, I'm back to 11. Add to that the really loud ringing in my left ear, and I just want to lie down on the floor and not get up.
Sorry for the downer blog today. I guess the good thing is that I don't feel like drinking alcohol? It doesn't seem like an answer right now.