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Saturday, April 12, 2014

Isn't it crazy how pictures can just jump you back into action?! I meet up with some of my friends on Saturday and they wanted pictures. I am not fond of pictures, I am always cringing when I see myself. And, I had come from Zumba, my hair was a mess and I forgot to bring a regular bra, so had to wear my sports bra under my change of clothes. All around, I was not keen on taking this photo.

Well....I was right. It stinks. I think I look terrible and this dress used to be a little big on me. I had lost about 25 pounds and kept it off for three years. Over the last year, I have had a very rough year, moved 3 times and am starting another new job. To say I have been stressed, is putting it mildly. I have finally come to a point where I am getting myself back together. However, I did gain my weight back and am 1# from my highest weight. is the photos, because they wanted multiple shots. Ugh!

So this week, I got back on track. I decided, even though my doc wants me to track calories, I can't track that and PP (WW) too. So, I decided I would just track PP. I started my week off on the Simply Filling plan. Well, by the end of the weekend, I had used up 33 of my 49 weekly points. I changed back to Tracking on Monday.

I did good, until Thursday hit. I was working with another (new) co-worker and poor thing. She was so stressed out when I met up with her. She vented, which I didn't mind. However, I noticed I ate so much more on Thursday evening after work. What was different? Having gone through a vent session, I must have just absorbed all of it and I guess it did stress me out. A better solution would have been to go to the gym, but I apparently relied on my old habits of being comforted by food. But...I tracked it all.

So, today I thought I would go to the 2 hour Zumba class. Which, I did. It made me feel so good! So energized and happy! I ate well for the rest of the day and just a bit ago I had 4 more points I didn't need. But, I am not going to beat myself up about that. I am learning. So, due to using a lot of PP this weekend (which I might not have used if doing Tracking instead of Simply Filling) and my Thursday, I am in the negative for the week. To the tune of -43. Not great.

What I am going to take this as is a learning experience. Here is what I have learned:
1) I love Simply Filling, but portion control is a problem for me. Tracking is what I need to do.
2) Stress, even from others, drives me to food. I need to try to recognize that sooner.
3) TV for me = Food. I need to re-work my evenings and plan on going to the gym instead of watching TV. It will make my day go better foodwise, it will give me those feel good endorphins and I won't be sitting in front of the TV wanting to eat.
4) I got up early one morning this week and went for a walk. I didn't worry about my pace (which is a first!) and I just enjoyed it. It set my day off really positively and I want to do that more often.
5) As Yoda says, "Do or Do Not - There is no try." I can want, wish and hope all I want, but only action is going to make a difference in my weightloss.
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    Sorry, I'm late reading your blog. April has been a crazy month, and my weight has been spiraling up too. Congratulations on making yourself a priority and figuring out your triggers. Knowledge is power.
    1424 days ago
    You look beautiful! You and I have a lot in common. I'm with you, as much as I hate it, I haven't found a good substitute for tracking calories. That's an interesting observation about how you deal with other people's stress. Maybe the next time you need to be a good friend, you can both walk and talk, that way you work out the stress in a healthy way together. TV and eating in the evenings is my danger zone. I hope your evening workout plans address the problem for you. I think we have the most success when we can start stringing those good feelings together, one workout at a time.

    I'm cheering for you!
    1439 days ago
    it's tough getting back on track and i for one give you kudos!!! stay with it girlfriend and rock yourself proud!! emoticon emoticon
    1439 days ago
  • KELAN5
    You can do this! By the way, you look lovely-- you just can't see it right now. You will be lovely at any weight, but losing weight will make you healthier and improve your quality of life. Keep pushing!!!
    1440 days ago
    Knowing your stressors is half the battle. You can do this!! emoticon
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    1441 days ago
  • 144AUTUMN
    You can do it!!
    1441 days ago
    Good luck with your re-commitment I know you will do emoticon
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    1441 days ago
    I had a similar experience. I took a trip to Catalina Island with my mom and brother. My brother brought wetsuits and diving gear, so we suited and went in. Afterwards my mom took a picture of us. The wet, skin-tight, black rubber suit made me look like a walrus standing next to my trim 165 lb brother who's only 1 year younger and has the same skeletal frame build as I do. Everybody else who looks at the pic says it's not as bad as I think it is, but it's not what I want to be. I don't find it depressing or de-motivational to look at it. Rather I think it helps me be honest with myself and realize the need to improve.

    Best wishes with your re-commitment!
    1441 days ago
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