Thursday, April 10, 2014
I would like to take just a moment to thank everyone who offered sweet words on my last post. I'm almost constantly surrounded by people, but sometimes I just feel so alone. It makes my heart smile that you took a few minutes out of your day to read my words and to then leave such supportive and considerate comments. You guys really cheer me up, and I can't tell you how much that means to me. Thank you so much, from the bottom of my heart.
I decided since it was 71 degrees and sunny that I'd like to walk on the Riverwalk today, instead of exercising in my bedroom. Husband asked to come with, so I said ok. I was still in a pretty good funk, but whatever. We got over there and started walking. The sunshine felt so good, and after a few minutes I could really feel those endorphins kicking in. I just can't get over how GOOD it feels to workout. I really could kick myself for all the times I've quit exercising...and eating well, for that matter. I can actually feel my body craving the exercise. I can feel my blood pressure rising throughout the day, throughout a difficult situation...and the first thought in my head is "UGH, I want to go workout." I'm also noticing that when I "can't" workout, I'm getting really ticked off about it. For example, yesterday I got a nasty headache, and there's just NO WAY I can workout with a headache. If I don't rest, it will turn into a migraine, and then I'm done for. I was so ticked off! Today, I went on a LONG walk with Husband and about halfway through I noticed my bad knee was hurting, and when we went down this hill, my lower back just started killing me. I'm lying on an ice pack right now, and then will get the heating pad on it (this is what my chiropractor tells me to do). Earlier, I was thinking, "this back thing better not end up being a setback! I'm going to be pissed." That's just so strange to me. The "old me" would jump at the opportunity (read, "excuse") to not workout. Maybe this "new me" is actually going to do it this time, and that's why things are so different? Geez, I hope so.
So Husband and I walked, and walked, and walked. We went farther than I have gone by myself. The weather couldn't have been any nicer. We didn't talk much, just listened to our music. I don't talk when I workout, anyway. At first, I admit, I was kind of annoyed in a way that I couldn't have my alone time. But I was glad he came with me. It was nice to have some quiet time with him. We don't get that much. And it was especially nice just to know that he wanted to come and be with me, even if we didn't talk. People don't always have to communicate. I was just happy that he wanted to be with me. I think we ended up walking about 4 miles. We walked for 80 minutes, and according to the mile markers, we were walking about 5 minutes per quarter-mile. My feet were (are!) so sore now, and my back hurts, but I'm glad we went anyway. No regrets. I read something once, "You will never say 'I regret that workout.' You will say 'I regret NOT doing that workout' every time." Truth.
Things were a bit better tonight with Daughter. She's going away on Saturday, for Spring Break, and I really don't want us to part on bad terms. I really hope this is a recharge that we all need, and that she comes back refreshed and relaxed.
So...I guess it's time for today's run-down:
SBD -- Phase 1.5, Day 18
Breakfast: turkey bacon, lowfat cottage cheese, orange juice.
Lunch: Grilled chicken breast, salad (lettuce, tomatoes, cukes), ranch dressing, watermelon.
Dinner: steamed cauliflower and baby carrots with I Can't Believe It's Not Butter Spray and melted reduced fat shredded cheddar...two cubes of cheddar cheese, 100 calorie pack of dry-roasted almonds, orange La Croix.
Snacks: string cheese (2), apple, crunchy peanut butter.
Activity: 80 minute walk (4 miles).
Well, it's time to check on the never-ending laundry, and time to get on the heating pad. I really, really, really hope this is not going to be a setback.