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Stop being selfish - choose healthy

Monday, April 07, 2014

I ate my fridge and my scale squealed on me. My jeans all shrunk, same with my shirt, bra and skivvies. I thought that my clothes shrinking would bother me, but, it's looking like Spring in Ontario (7 robins spotted on my 5k walk this morning ~ the first of 2014!!!) and I'm looking for a ynew wardrobe FILLED with pastels. So what if it's a size 12 instead of 10?
Big deal.
Hubby keeps feeding me. It's his love language. His way of saying, "thank you-dear-wife-for-not-killing-
he-car", & "thankyou-for-not-croaking-aft
er-your-surgery", and "thank you-for-dumping-that-job-that-
stole-so-much-energy-and -sanity", "We missed you being home".
So, I would eat and eat and eat and eat.
No need for me to be rude. Right?

So, I jumped up ten pounds... It very well could've been all of it. It was stressful losing a job, a car, and mobility for a couple of months this year. My b.f.f. says I look better with weight.
I feel like poo.
I'm tired. My stomach hurts all the time cuz I went back to hovering my food instead of chewing it. That lead to irregularity. Which lead to sugar up and water down. Finally, sleep deprivation triggering migraines.


It's a beautiful day filled with sunshine and birds singing. The negative voices in my head have been bound and gagged.

Weight increase is selfish and so is the size of my dessert serving. My loved ones have to deal with the aftermath of my negative, abusive choices. Not one more time is bonding and celebrating the everyday with my family going to be sabotaged by selfishness.

I was working Sundays for the last year and I never got myself or the kids to church for over a year. We were a home school family that spent many days a week with our brothers and sisters. Our faith is our foundation. It's ourmoral compass. Without our foundation we crumbled. Without the peace from trusting in purpose higher than self, we went cold.
Our home is filling with peace, love and hope.

The greatest of these is Love.

A day hemmed in prayer seldom comes unravelled.


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
MOSTMOM1 4/9/2014 11:09PM

    I have missed talking to you, buddy. We need to connect again. I don't think you're getting my telepathic messages.
(this is me, trying very hard, to communicate telepathically over the border)

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JOYFULMOMTO5 4/8/2014 5:07PM

    Love you! emoticon It's all gonna be alright emoticon emoticon
Those 10 lbs will be saying "bye, bye" in no time!! Glad you are well enough to be out and about and walking 5k's! You are a survivor and this has just been a bump in the road. Things have separated us from being able to be away from church family also....It makes life very different. Praying peace, strength, and hope over you and yours! emoticon

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LIVINHEALTHY9 4/8/2014 5:52AM

    Keep fighting the good fight!

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    Connie, I am back. Spark works for me. I have a sense of accountability here and a Love-Hate relationship with the food tracker. OH how I hate that thing. My body neeeds 1500 calories a day...I want 3000. Today I did not make my goal. I overachieved on calories. It could've been double though. So, today is a win. I'm steered in the right direction.
Mom, Life does happen. Seriously, if things were calm I'd snap. Tonight I'm the official vomit catcher to the baby. Feeling sexy, triumphant and accomplished tonight.
Julia, Spring most definately has a large percent of motivation. Bobby's 40th is next week. Noooo pressure.
Filly, I won't throw in the towel - I'm weak ~ He's strong. It's so true...for the amount of storms 10lbs is a featherweight in this throw down.

(typed on my teeeeeny microscopic screen of my phone.)

Accomplished ...
emoticon emoticon
working on sleep
staying under the cap of my range.

My thighs will thank me this summer when the rubbing from walking won't set them on fire.


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TEXASFILLY 4/7/2014 8:06PM

    Well, li'l darlin'~ don't throw in the towel! *hugs* So happy to hear from you again and to know that you survived all the trials that came your way. Ten pounds is a small price to pay for all those stressors~ so it sounds like you're on the right track in getting it all together. Just take it one day at a time, and the next time the ol' Devil reminds you of your weaknesses, remind him of his future. Love you, gal ~*Hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    I wish I would listen to myself.

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    Loved that last quote!

I think SPRING coming is going to boost your resolve to do whatever things you feel need tweaking and resolving ... although it seems you are already on the path to finding peace once again in your life. TRANSITIONS .... they sure do rock the boat for a while, don't they?
But from your blog, it seems you are dropping anchor and seeing green pastures just on the horizon.

As always, wishing you the very BEST! emoticon

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I*AM*BLESSED 4/7/2014 12:26PM

    Darn that's always getting in the way!

Glad to hear from you again... emoticon

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WISHICOULDFLY 4/7/2014 12:24PM

    Let me be the first to welcome you back Liz! I'm sorry you went through so much and I hope you and your family are doing well now. I saw a status that you were getting surgery. Was this related to injuries sustained in your accident?

I'm sure you hubby is right and that you look great, but you have to FEEL great too and tummy issues are no fun at all.

Wishing you more sunshine and happiness! We all missed you! - Connie

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