Monday, April 07, 2014
Throughout life we start many new journeys such as graduation, married life, having children, starting a healthy lifestyle. I've started all of these journeys at some point in my life. A new journey I started 2 weeks ago is living the rest of my life without my parents. My mother died 5 years ago and now my father died 2 weeks ago. It is a very odd, scary feeling not having any parents. I know many people live their whole lives either without parents or they may just not be close to them. I was very close to both of my parents. Even though I moved out at 18 and have been very independent my whole life, I still looked to them for advice and companionship. We spent alot of time together, whether it be on vacations or just hanging out on weekends. They were always a phone call away with any questions about cooking or plants or basically anything.
Now, I've blogged before about my marriage problems and actually things are still really good between us. While my dad was sick, my DH was there for me and is there for me now. I feel like we finally have a good marriage and have come to realize in the last couple of weeks that our little family is my only family now. I have brothers and a sister but they have their own lives now too. Birthdays, holidays, vacations will just be my little family now.
My new journey is coinciding with my new clean lifestyle journey. I think that is very fitting. I feel a sense of responsibility now to my children to be as healthy as I can be and live as long as I can. I don't want them to lose me when they are only 40.
Along with eating mostly clean and using mostly clean products, I am going to continue to exercise at least 4 times a week, hopefully 5. I am going to sleep at least 7 hrs a night and do yoga/meditate at least twice a week. These are all things that I already do most of the time.
Along with those things, I'm going to either be completely AF or mostly AF. This is going to be very hard for me but with so many bad things coming at us in every direction, drinking causes damage to our bodies that can be completely avoided. This is going to be my number 1 goal. I am also going to make Dr. appts that I have been avoiding. I need to have a complete physical, a mammogram, and a dermatologist checkup.
I am making a vow to take care of myself not only for me but for my family.