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The Sunday freeze

Sunday, April 06, 2014

I've always said that Saturday morning is my favorite time of the week. Sunday evening is the least.

I go into kind of a tailspin every Sunday. Sometimes (like tonight) I don't even cook dinner, just eat bits and pieces of whatever.By the time I go to bed at around 10PM, I'm frequently close to tears and dragging my feet. I've tried and tried to figure this out. I wouldn't treat a bug this way. When I have guests, I cook a beautiful dinner that's at least twice too big. But for me? Not so much.

Maybe I feel weird about cooking Sunday dinner for myself when it's supposed to be a family thing. Maybe it's about not wanting to go back to work on Monday morning.

I wanted to start going to church again but then my car quit and now I don't have a way to get there. Today I've spent the day knitting my co-worker's birthday afghan and I'm happy to do it, but I'm kind of feeling like I'm frozen in cement.

I thought of calling the church I want to visit, but what would I say? "Hi, I want to visit your church but I can't get there?" What would THAT accomplish?

I've been told all my life that I'm not acceptable and that I need to hide myself away from others. I'm beginning to wonder if Fate or whoever else is trying to tell me the same.
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    Without my taking time to read all the replies --- let me share that many churches are more than happy to find a ride for those without a way of getting to church functions (& that definitely includes Sunday services).

    Such a "ministry" is one I am more than happy to be involved in. Please, give any church you wish to attend a call & ask to be connected with someone who could help you with that need. Believe me you will be filling a need for the one giving you rides. Who will be blessed more --- that is the question --- I believe it is the one who is supplying the transportation.

    If you would feel more comfortable with a female giving you the transportation, you can share that information.

    I believe that you have many friends just waiting to make your acquaintance; however, in this case you really do have to make that first step --- the call! emoticon

    You know what? I am feeling great anger toward (& great pity for) the low-life who fed you that lie about your worth. Right now, though, the anger is outweighing the pity. Please, look yourself in the mirror & give yourself some positive feedback. If nothing else tell yourself that Ima at SP believes you to be one sweet gal! I truly always have enjoyed your blogs & thought that if we lived near one another we would surely become fast friends.

    I, too, battle with the fallout of having innocently taken on the lies of others as my truth, so I know what you are going through. When we truly realize that what we took on as truth. was nothing but a pile of lies. stemming from the bitterness &/or whatever from others, it is easier to reject that extra "baggage" from the moments of our life.

    Still, we have to do the work of rejecting the lies (every single time they come to mind) & replacing them with truth. I like to find my truth on the pages of God's Holy Word. You must have heard it said that "God doesn't make any junk!" And He doesn't! Since He created both of us that means we are not junk --- no matter what we might have been programmed to believe through unfeeling, unkind, & uncaring others.

    God bless us both in learning to see ourselves as He sees us!

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    Comment edited on: 4/9/2014 7:58:23 PM
    I often dread Sunday as it means back to work the next day.
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    Absolutely call the church, say you want to come and you will be pleasantly surprised. Most, if not all churches, have a variety of ways for people without transportation to get to church.
    I know you think you believe you are not acceptable. You are a child of God, you hold a divine spark as vital as that in anyone and brighter than most. You shine for me. Do me a favor and subscribe to Your Inner Pilot Light @
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  • JILL313
    When I was working full time outside the home I also hated Sunday nights as I knew it was only hours until a new work week started up for me. So it became hard to see it come around so quickly. Like Nancy said a lot of churches do have Van service especially large churches. When you're ready to try a church call it days before the Sunday you want to attend the Church. I'll be praying you feel better very soon. Feeling so down and worthless is something most of us feel from time to time. If it continues I think you should consult your Dr. and see what she/he has to say. Possibly exercise as well as a healthy diet will help you also feel better. I know you've gone through some very trying and difficult times and it makes you sad thinking of that. God Bless you my friend. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
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  • KATD13
    Just wanted to let you know, I'm thinking about you today. Hope that you are feeling a little more upbeat, now that it's Monday evening.

    I see you've already received a bunch, but I'd like to send you more emoticon
    1350 days ago
    First of all, you are NOT unacceptable! I want to put that out there, so you know that I believe that you are a special, wonderful person, and you should never hide yourself away. And to that end, please call the church, and let them know your situation. There are many churches who are more than happy to pick someone up and bring them to worship. If they are truly living in Christ, they will be quite happy to do so. Good luck!
    1350 days ago
    Everyone else already said what I was thinking. God bless!
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    You've already gotten the advice I'd give so just offering emoticon
    1351 days ago
    hugs & prayers for you
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    The church I go to is more than glad to have a parishioner pick up those who are in your situation. It's also a great way to meet people!
    1351 days ago
    Sounds like you have "Monday-itis." I have it, too. I have a hard time sleeping on Sunday night, too. emoticon
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    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon Mary....You have some wonderful advice already given to you. Not much more I can say .....except keep postive........... I just know............. emoticon Keep emoticon Like Bobby Flay on your background pic!!!! Maybe make one of his recipes on Sunday as a NICE TREAT to yourself!!!! emoticon
    1351 days ago
    Many churches have vans or buses to pick up parishioners and most are willing to pick people up - almost everywhere, city or rural has at least one church willing to pick up those who cannot otherwise get to church but want to. I think you should call them and find out. We have several people in our church who will pick up anyone who wishes to come to services.
    1351 days ago
    What you want isn't on the menu. Sunday dinner for a family. Then you added not wanting to go back to work on Monday morning that makes it worse. No wonder you feel so sad.
    If you want to go to that church, you need to find a way. Give them a call and see if they can help you. Their mission is to help those in need and you are in need. If they can't help you, consider taking public transit or a cab. You are worth the effort.
    You may have been told all your life that you are worthless but it's time to push back against that kind of message. You wouldn't tolerate someone speaking like that to your friend so don't accept it toward yourself. I found this on another Sparkers blog and saved it and today I am giving it to you.
    We can keep reliving a hurt from the past or we can move forward and focus on today and on happier times, and people in our lives that love and support us.

    1351 days ago
    Sunday used to be my favorite day of the week Mary but now not so much any more. It used to be because of making a big breakfast to share and then a family dinner but now that the girls are grown and moved away and I am alone things are different now. Now at least on Sundays I try to make my self a special salad or try a new simple recipe that I can reheat the leftovers during the week for myself or bring to my mom or dad. As the weather gets nicer I will start to go out early Sunday am's to walk my dog near the coastline. My mood seems to be better if I do something positive in the morning. You enjoy cooking. So spoil yourself. You are a skilled knitter. So make sure you have a project going for yourself also at the same time as the gifted one. As for your new possible church. I think that is a wonderful idea to give them a call. Let them know you are interested in visiting, that you have meant to stop in etc..... but have had recent car problems. Maybe they will ask were you live and offer to have a fellow member that lives in your area that can bring you to a Sunday service. At least you can introduce your self and ask to be put on their mailing list so you can learn about the different church activities.

    Wishing you a wonderful week! Get out there and be seen my dear friend it is not fate for you to hide.

    ~ Kristan


    I was thinking of you last night when I was watching Bobby's new show. :)
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  • LIS193
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  • KATD13
    I wouldn't be surprised if the way you feel about Sunday nights is completely related to going to work on Monday. It's not easy to be upbeat, when your dreading the next 5 days.

    As for being unacceptable, that's just not true. Forget about those hurtful words, ignore them. They come from unhappy people, who want to keep you down. You can't let that type of person think they are right. Because they couldn't be more wrong.

    Hold your head high, because you are an amazing person. You kind heart & spirit shines through. There will be a slew of posts, saying the same. Read each one and hold those sentiments close to your heart, because those are the true words.
    1351 days ago
    You are brilliant to have recognized this Sunday behavior pattern. Knowing the problem is the first step to elimination. You are already on your way to choosing a new behavior and at deciding how to make that happen.

    You are more than acceptable, you are capable and better - you're not lolling about in denial. Ditch the people who do not celebrate the person that you are. Fate is not in charge, it's only a collection of possibilities. You are in charge. You are the manager. You are the focal point.

    I'm giving you homework; each night this week write down ONE quality that makes you a great person. I can already think of four. Will you get seven?

    &BTW, good job, You! Getting so much knitting in. I might get three hrs in tonight if I stop obsessing about Spark! emoticon
    1351 days ago
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