I didn't sleep very well last night. All the drama from the in-laws kept me awake until after midnight. Then I woke up around 3am from a really weird nightmare. My heart felt like it was going to beat out of my chest. I had to get my iPhone and turn Netflix on for a while to focus my attention onto something else. After an hour or so, I fell back asleep. I woke up around 8:30 this morning, feeling like I didn't get much rest. Husband and I had a nice breakfast together, and then he got his bike out for me (mine broke). He removed the rear reflector and lowered the seat all the way. He fixed the brakes and oiled the gears and I wiped it down. I've been dying to ride a bike for the entire length of the Riverwalk that I've been walking on after work. Today, I did it! I started at one end, and rode all the way to the other end, turned around and came back. The mile markers are messed up and confusing, so I don't know how many miles I actually rode, but it took me 38 minutes. There were many people there today walking their dogs, and just about all of them were getting on my nerves. They'd be walking on the right side, and the dogs (on leashes) would be walking way over on the left side (where I'm trying to pass)...I'd have my momentum up and even though I'd slow down a bit to pass, I had to slow way, way down until the people would notice me and finally reel their dogs in. This father and daughter were just lollygagging across this bridge, taking up the entire width of it. I even saw the daughter thumb over her shoulder at me, and they just kept on taking their sweet time. Finally they exit the bridge and saunter over to the right a bit to go towards their car. I just couldn't help myself, but I muttered as I passed, "Geez. You know I'm here. Get out of the way," and shook my head. I seriously don't think they heard me. They were too wrapped up in themselves. I really don't mean to be ugly, and 99 times out of 100 I'm a VERY nice person...but good grief. It seems like lately I'm noticing that SO many people are just so damn inconsiderate and oblivious to other people! It's really getting on my nerves. I know part of my attitude was due to the stress from the day before, but still. People just aggravate the snot out of me sometimes.
So I was really proud of myself for doing that long bike ride, something I've been wanting to do for a while now. I have to say that my butt was really hurting and by the end of it, I was more than ready to get off that bike. Even when I was a skinny kid I had a wide, soft bike seat. My butt is still sore. But I'm glad I did the ride anyway.
When I got home, Husband was out back working on our storage "barn." I decided to help him, because he was (is) feeling really low from all the drama from yesterday. Honestly, I am, too. We've both been in a weird state of mind all day because of it. Anyway...For about 5 hours, we emptied everything out of it, cleaned and swept EVERYTHING (walls, ceilings, shelves, etc) used the Shop-Vac, decided what was junk and what we were keeping, put everything back, organized it, etc. It was an exhausting undertaking, but it desperately needed to be done. Next weekend we plan to tackle the outside of that area, which I'm ashamed to admit is pretty junky. Anyway. We'll do that next weekend. We took a break at one point to come in and have lunch, and then we got right back out there. Between the crappy night's sleep I got last night, stress, the bike ride, and cleaning the barn for five hours, doing laundry this afternoon and making dinner, I AM EXHAUSTED. I can hardly keep my eyes open. Cosmos comes on at 9 and I'm doing everything I can to stay awake for it. I really don't want to miss that show...I love it.
Then when Husband was taking the dogs out earlier, he heard my (parked) van making a weird clicking noise. The clicking would stop every time I stepped on the brake pedal. We tried to start it and the battery was completely dead. We jumped it with his truck and let it run for a long time. Hopefully it will work tomorrow. I freaking HATE that van. I've had nothing but trouble with it since I got it. My FIL sold it to me years ago. It's paid for and I can't afford anything else, so for now I am stuck with that GD thing. I would just about cut off my arm to get something else. I really, really hate it.
So, here's today's run-down:
Breakfast: golden eggs, turkey bacon, tomato, avocado, orange juice, coffee with sugar-free French vanilla creamer and Truvia.
Lunch: grilled chicken salad (mixed lettuces, tomato, cuke, carrot, chickpeas, grilled chicken breast, ranch dressing), water.
Dinner: homemade pizza (homemade organic whole wheat crust, homemade organic pizza sauce, turkey pepperoni, mushrooms, green olives, mozzarella cheese), two rum & diet Cokes.
Activity: 38 minute bike ride at the Riverwalk.
I think from now on, I will not use "SBD, Day ___" in my subject lines any more. I've documented this for four solid weeks, and I feel that it is enough of my routine at this point that it is a given.
I want to start doing some "Couch to 5K" training this week. I also want to incorporate the Jillian Michaels workouts into the mix. I spent last week walking at the Riverwalk and I need those strength workouts. I want to really push myself this week, and see what I can accomplish. I want to workout HARD, as hard as I can. I don't want to just be thin, I want to be STRONG. I want to be able to run without stopping. I want to be able to lift heavy things. I want to be able to do men's pushups. I want toned, defined, strong muscles (not bodybuilder kind of muscles...just well-toned). I want to continue to lose weight so that I'm no longer obese...then no longer overweight...I want to be healthy, happy, fit, and strong.