Thursday, April 03, 2014
I've never thought of myself as a yo-yo dieter. Heck, I've never really thought of myself as a dieter. I've been dissatisfied with my weight as long as I can remember, even when I was the weight that is now my goal weight, but I've also never thought it should be that important. I have several close people in my life who have struggled with eating disorders and who have had very major weight shifts. I never have. I've just been very gradually putting on 40 pounds over the last decade. And I've occasionally thought, ok that's not great, and I've gone to the gym for several years in a row and I did Sparkpeople for a while and lost a little weight, but honestly it's all just been a gradual gain. I can't even say my dissatisfaction has gotten that much greater. A little, especially as my face and belly got rounder, and I stopped liking most photos of myself (even old photos when I was thinner, so I'm not sure what that's about).
I got a Fitbit for myself using a Christmas gift card and since the beginning of the year I've consistently been walking. I've been hitting 10,000 steps consistently, often more. But not tracking food or even restricting it until Lent, when I gave up all pre-packaged junk food. But the scale hasn't budged at all. I am thinking my face is a bit thinner and I've definitely gained more endurance, but my husband still felt he had to give me a "I want you to be healthy" talk. He's a doctor and he said that walking alone wasn't going to be enough. It hurt and it pissed me off but it's also been true so it's hard to argue.
I've been doing more step cardio to get my steps in (leaves me drenched and definitely is a higher impact exercise) and as of April 1st I've started tracking food again. I know that works. So hopefully, I'll see some movement. I really want to feel like I'm actually accomplishing something.