Wednesday, April 02, 2014
Here is an update for you on things dealing with me. For one I am now down over 20 lbs according to my scale and clothes are fitting better. I think I sprained my ankle though. I am getting pain in it when I step down on it sometimes. I seen my internist yesterday to get a recurring issue dealt with. She is putting me on a cream. I am to use it for 2 weeks and see her in 3 mos. I have health care now as well as Mom. I have a ride through logistics care to see my counselor next week Wed. afternoon. I turned 34 on Saturday. I am going through a study with Mom called the 40 day soul fast. I am also being constantly broken spiritually by God because of the fact that I spend too much and don't think about anyone other than myself. I have been having nightmares about losing Leah and it hurts to think I could lose her because of my spending. It needs to be stopped. I can not keep this up I need to learn self control when it comes to spending. I am learning a lot through my inability to say no to spending. I am learning that it deals with my past and that I need to learn to talk about it instead buy and buy more things. Things can't heal my past or make up for a father who was absent emotionally in my life. There is so much more I could say but then this blog would be too long for you to read.