The weather has been SO lovely the past two days. I was exhausted yesterday from a bad night's sleep the night before, but today I woke up feeling noticeably more rested. I decided right then that I would go for a long walk after work. In my town, we have a really great scenic riverwalk. It meanders from one end of town to the other. People can bike, jog, walk, or even get in canoes or kayaks in the water. It's really nice. I decided to walk on that today. I changed clothes at work, then went to the riverwalk. It was so nice!! Just me, my iPod, and even had lots of friendly people smile at me along the way. Everyone seemed to just be in such a good mood...and with weather like that, how could you not be happy?! I'm so glad I went.
That got me thinking. I've been noticing things about "this time" vs. the "other times" I've tried to lose weight and get healthy. This time, I'm actually looking forward to exercise. This time, I'm really feeling pulled to be outdoors. I think part of it is just the fact that it's FINALLY Springtime, but I really want to be outdoors in the sunshine whenever I can. I've just been noticing how much I'm looking forward to working out, whether it's indoors or outdoors. All day long at work, I am thinking, "I can't wait to get out of here so I can go workout!" The last time I remember feeling that way was when I was a little kid. I'd be at school all day, just waiting to get out of there so I could go home and go outside and play. That was my favorite thing to do in the world. I'm feeling that pull again, to be active...and I am REALLY loving that.
Also, something else I'm noticing this time, is that I don't want to just sit around anymore. I'm trying to keep myself happily busy so that I'm not eating, thinking about food, craving a glass of wine, etc. I think it was on Sunday, I didn't really have anything to do at the moment, and I felt a bit stir-crazy. I think that's when Daughter and I decided to go for our walk at the Middle School track and nature trail. I've been a sitting-around-kinda-gal for a LONG time...and I like this new, active Me.
I'm noticing that it's much easier for me to stay on track with my diet, when I think about what I want to eat. I think about dinners, and what kinds of appropriate lunches I might want to put together from the leftovers. I make my lunch every night after dinner. I get it completely ready and put it in my lunch bag in the fridge. That also saves me time and stress in the morning, and I know I have nothing but "good" food in my lunch. It really does make it much easier on yourself to have nothing but "approved foods." It's been a little bit hard at times, because there are other people in the house, and they are not on SBD. They are having breads, more fruits, etc than I am. But honestly, I feel so good and I am making such great progress that I honestly don't feel deprived.
I keep telling myself "remember how this feels!" Whenever I realize how good it feels to be working out, I tell myself that. Whenever I notice how great I'm feeling since I started eating such healthy foods, I tell myself that. Whenever I feel that pull to go outside and get some fresh air and sunshine, I tell myself that. Whenever I feel motivated to do some chore and then I actually DO IT, I tell myself that. It might seem like an insignificant thing to separate chicken breasts into packs of two, shrink wrap them and put them in the freezer, but I did it. A few weeks ago, I wouldn't have had to motivation to do that. But tonight, I did it. At first, I said I didn't want to, but I very quickly, and without thinking about it, changed my attitude. I put away five bags of chicken breasts, with two per bag. People who have suffered from depression may understand and appreciate what I'm saying here. It's a very BIG deal to accomplish even the smallest tasks. So I'm seeing all these "little things" that I'm doing lately (like going outside, packaging up chicken, working out, packing my lunch the night before) as very BIG accomplishments. Because that's exactly how they feel to me.
So here's my run-down for today:
Breakfast: turkey sausage, string cheese, almond milk.
Lunch: turkey & cheese rollups, leftover Earth-Fare salad, celery sticks, spinach leaves, ranch dressing, skim milk.
Dinner: turkey & pinto bean taco salad (with black olives, tomatoes, lettuce, avocado, reduced fat shredded cheddar, salsa, light sour cream, hot sauce) -- SOOO YUMMY!
Dessert: orange Jello "fluff" with a dollop of sugar-free Cool Whip on top.
Snacks: baby carrots with ranch dressing.
Activity: 57 minute walk by the river, mixed terrain.
My feet hurt so badly. I would kill for a foot massage. My knees are hurting a bit tonight, too. It's hard having this weight on my poor feet and knees. I will be SO glad to be rid of it!
...and I WILL BE RID OF IT.